I am 32 years old. I was always interested in nursing, but when I graduated High School it was a decision - nursing, which I did not have the grades for (hey, we're all stupid when we're 17) or the job I was offered at the time, working for a record company.
Guess which one I took?:)
I worked in the music biz for 7 years. I loved it, the artistic temperaments, the perks, but not the pay! Minimum wage for 70 hour weeks....it was tough. I couldn't afford to eat properly. I packed it all in five years ago and now work full time in the Transportation industry, doing payroll for a trucking company. While I love my job, and I like to think I'm good at it, I can't really "do" anything - I don't have a piece of paper like my husband, saying you ARE somebody. I know that sounds silly.
I have recently been looking into going back to school. I can't quit my full time job - no money. But I can become an RPN at night school. It will take three years, and I've missed the deadline to apply this September - but I have signed up for two of the credits (psychology and Health writing skills). So I suppose I will be a bit ahead next year. I toyed with it all year after having a FABULOUS nurse when I had surgery last year. She was amazing. She listened to everything I said (or mumbled) and fought for my comfort with the surgeon (who I don't think cared if I was alive). She was an inspiration, I want to BE her....I want to make that kind of difference to someone. These days the only appreciation I get is when a truck driver picks up his paycheque!
Here is my dilemma. I am terrified. I was never a good student. I excelled at things I was interested in (English, arts, Biology) but was a disaster at anything mathematical. I haven't been in school in over 12 years. I am so scared of failing.
Finally, after years of "floating" off in employment neverland, I have finally found what I really want to do, and I am so scared I won't be able to do it!
I am actively searching for a math tutor to prepare me for the entrance exam, I have applied to be a volunteer at the hospital around the corner from my house, what else can I do to boost my confidence? I have contacted the college I am planning to attend, but it is very large and impersonal.
