Hi all, I'm need of some guidance, advice, opinions, prayer ... whatever you can throw my way. Recently terminated for a failed drug screen without disclosure of my poor judgment of using recreational MJ. I was told by my employer that I would be referred to TPAPN. The random caught me off guard, I got scared and didn't disclose what I just should have.
I'm scared to death. To be honest. I don't know if I should refer myself. I don't know if I should just try and reapply somewhere else and hope I don't get referred ... I don't know what to do...
I want to do what is right to correct my wrong. But I'm scared I won't be able to find employment if I start this TPAPN process and I can't NOT work.
can anyone help me with some experience, advice. I'm so lost right now and I feel so broken... I'm trying to hold it together....
Just checking back in...I started my TPAPN contract officially Jan 15th. It’s been a ride for sure ... I recvd the clear to apply for a job 2 weeks ago...
i was able to choose weekly counseling sessions with a drug therapist instead of the IOP. (Thank God!) been a blessing. Found a really great counselor that I probably should have been seeing all along ..
im doing my daily check ins, I’m scared to death of forgetting one day. Sometimes I check the website multiple times a day just to make sure.
Im also doing weekly meetings. I’m able to use my weekly church group as a support group and then I also attend celebrate recovery meetings. I haven’t gotten a sponsor, I hope this doesn’t harm my case?? I just find it hard to ask for a sponsor for this situation?
My only stipulations are having to disclose the TPAPN thing to my employer, who then has to do quarterly reports. I don’t have any narcotic restrictions. My case manager waived them.
I’ve been out of work 2 months now and I’m about to lose it. Somehow (by Gods Grace) we have been able to stay afloat but it’s getting scary.
I’ve had an interview with a HH agency (case manager said those are accepted on a case by case basis) and a dialysis clinic. I have another interview next week with a LTACH. I’m kinda praying for the dialysis clinic. It’s something completely different than what I was doing before.
The positives in all this... I’ve been home. Been able to be around for the kids.
I’ve jazzed up the resume, written several cover letters, buffed up my interviewing skills ... sounds silly but it’s not easy putting yourself out there when you’ve been somewhere for years.
The celebrate recovery meetings are pretty great. The teachings are helpful in a lot of areas of life not just addiction.
I’ve started working out again dusted off the ol gym membership and get a good sweat going several times week
? There have been some very dark days. Days of feeling worthless. Failure type crap. Lies. I have to remind myself those thoughts are lies. I’m not a failure. I’m not worthless. I made a mistake. I’m a fallable human being.
?? For a job offer!! The lucky person that gets me is gonna get themselves one hell of a motivated gal. I’m so ready to walk the nurse walk and talk the nurse talk again. I have that new nurse spirit in me again. All excited and ready to be let out into the world again.
CR is a great program and I'm glad its working for you! You'll get a job soon. Some people haven't been able to work for YEARS and still land a job. Good luck!
Specializes in Substance abuse recovery advocate; LTC.
Take my advice, monitoring is not optional. I assumed it was after my first brush with the board and then when I really needed it I was initially ineligible because I fought them the first time around.
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Just checking back in...I started my TPAPN contract officially Jan 15th. It’s been a ride for sure ... I recvd the clear to apply for a job 2 weeks ago...
i was able to choose weekly counseling sessions with a drug therapist instead of the IOP. (Thank God!) been a blessing. Found a really great counselor that I probably should have been seeing all along ..
im doing my daily check ins, I’m scared to death of forgetting one day. Sometimes I check the website multiple times a day just to make sure.
Im also doing weekly meetings. I’m able to use my weekly church group as a support group and then I also attend celebrate recovery meetings. I haven’t gotten a sponsor, I hope this doesn’t harm my case?? I just find it hard to ask for a sponsor for this situation?
My only stipulations are having to disclose the TPAPN thing to my employer, who then has to do quarterly reports. I don’t have any narcotic restrictions. My case manager waived them.
I’ve been out of work 2 months now and I’m about to lose it. Somehow (by Gods Grace) we have been able to stay afloat but it’s getting scary.
I’ve had an interview with a HH agency (case manager said those are accepted on a case by case basis) and a dialysis clinic. I have another interview next week with a LTACH. I’m kinda praying for the dialysis clinic. It’s something completely different than what I was doing before.
The positives in all this... I’ve been home. Been able to be around for the kids.
I’ve jazzed up the resume, written several cover letters, buffed up my interviewing skills ... sounds silly but it’s not easy putting yourself out there when you’ve been somewhere for years.
The celebrate recovery meetings are pretty great. The teachings are helpful in a lot of areas of life not just addiction.
I’ve started working out again dusted off the ol gym membership and get a good sweat going several times week
? There have been some very dark days. Days of feeling worthless. Failure type crap. Lies. I have to remind myself those thoughts are lies. I’m not a failure. I’m not worthless. I made a mistake. I’m a fallable human being.
?? For a job offer!! The lucky person that gets me is gonna get themselves one hell of a motivated gal. I’m so ready to walk the nurse walk and talk the nurse talk again. I have that new nurse spirit in me again. All excited and ready to be let out into the world again.