Sunday November 19 2023

Tweety, BSN, RN · Nov 19, 2023

Good morning!

Joe hope you have a good day.

Today were back to our normal temps this time of year which is about 78 and it's sunny so should be nice.

I had a decent day yesterday. Got caught up on sleep and did some cooking.

Been on my benzo since before the trip and used it all through the trip and the last couple of days. Anxiety level has calmed down and I'm thinking I need to detox off of it. Not sure why a trip home to see my parents filled me with such anxiety, but traveling and being away from home in general does that. So glad to have the medication but need to not take it every day so it will work for me when I need it.

toomuchbaloney · Nov 19, 2023

Tweety said:

Good morning!

Joe hope you have a good day.

Today were back to our normal temps this time of year which is about 78 and it's sunny so should be nice.

I had a decent day yesterday. Got caught up on sleep and did some cooking.

Been on my benzo since before the trip and used it all through the trip and the last couple of days. Anxiety level has calmed down and I'm thinking I need to detox off of it. Not sure why a trip home to see my parents filled me with such anxiety, but traveling and being away from home in general does that. So glad to have the medication but need to not take it every day so it will work for me when I need it.

I understand about the travel anxiety. There are so many variables involved in the overall success of a trip and we, individually, can only control or impact some of those variables.

I've never taken a prescribed benzo outside of a pre-procedure sedative in a facility. When I worked I managed my anxiety with alcohol. Now that I'm retired I don't drink anymore and I use edible cannabis to manage my travel anxiety. I like that. It makes me feel very relaxed and friendly. I'm not one to engage my aisle mates but it's nice when I'm at least friendly and not anxious if they talk to me.

I appreciate today how much unspoken stress my spouse (NotEnoughBaloney) was experiencing over those tests. The absence of her stressor is more obvious than it's presence was, in hindsight. I'm glad that she had the grandson to play with this weekend. TBH, she was not that excited that I shared this with the group but understands the sense of community. She rarely takes the keyboard in AN anymore.

Tweety, BSN, RN · Nov 19, 2023

I can't wait to retire and do edibles. I don't know if my new doctor is a prescriber as we haven't talked about it. But I do know one doctor that when advertising a new practice he made sure to put that in his ad, along with the fact he provides transgender normal therapy.

I'm not sure why I have travel anxiety and anxiety in general. Seems random, but always when I travel. I remember being in India, Peru and Germany pacing the floors and hotel lobbies in the wee hours of the night with anxiety and insomnia. I didn't know what to call it then but I've had a lot of that my whole life. I'm glad to have the benzo and trazodone to help when I travel nowadays and in general. Just don't want to become dependent.

toomuchbaloney · Nov 19, 2023

Tweety said:

I can't wait to retire and do edibles. I don't know if my new doctor is a prescriber as we haven't talked about it. But I do know one doctor that when advertising a new practice he made sure to put that in his ad, along with the fact he provides transgender normal therapy.

I'm not sure why I have travel anxiety and anxiety in general. Seems random, but always when I travel. I remember being in India, Peru and Germany pacing the floors and hotel lobbies in the wee hours of the night with anxiety and insomnia. I didn't know what to call it then but I've had a lot of that my whole life. I'm glad to have the benzo and trazodone to help when I travel nowadays and in general. Just don't want to become dependent.

I think that those of us with anxiety and sleep disturbance from anxiety ARE dependent upon the medications, therapies and rituals that we use to manage the symptoms, just like those with migraines are dependent upon their meds or those with or those with heartburn are dependent upon their meds, etc.

Trazadone really knocks me out. I sleep well with full spectrum cannabis gummies.

No Stars In My Eyes · Nov 19, 2023

Haven't had any gummies (OTC kind) that I have liked...the ones I tried (2 different brands/flavors) I found rather ick, and with an after-taste on the back sides of my tongue that was hard to get rid of. Oh well! Since I can't afford 'the real thing', due to expense and not knowing someone to find it for me, I get pre-rolled indica or sativa that is mixed with something else, at the smoke shop, (previously known as a "Head Shop") unroll it into a little tupper-ware container with a lid, and I only smoke a little of it before bed, to help me get sleepy enough to fall asleep without a lot of the Racing Brain Syndrome.

So, it is a sunny Sunday, mid 60's. Then tomorrow, lower 60's, and Tuesday RAIN, which we need, but is a PIA in which to have to transport Nannie to the court-house. That's another "Oh well".

Nannie is up, meds and breakfast done with. I only have the drapes halfway open, because you KNOW it is VERY BRIGHT out there! Momo has had her breakfast and did her biznezz on her pee-pad, and she has found a place on the sofa mushed up next to me. She really likes to be curled up and crammed into a small place, for some reason.

I have no firm itinerary for today. Sometimes just puttering here and there often gets a good bit done. For instance, hubby's shaving equipment and other 'manly' products need to be cleared off the counter in the upstairs bathroom. It just occurred to me the other day that there is no reason I can't put my own products next to the sink now that I am the only one using that bathroom.

But here I sit, poking around different sites on the laptop. That is a THIRD "Oh well", and I am done here for now!

nursej22, MSN, RN · Nov 19, 2023

Hi. Overcast here. Rain was predicted, but the forecast changed. I miss the cool sunshine. We did not go to see a movie. I asked dh, and he scowled. He has been very low energy. We did go early yesterday to the grocery store because he's been so worried about shopping for Thanksgiving. I would love to just go out for Thanksgiving dinner, but he feels like a huge meal must be prepared. dd said her ex might do dinner at his house, but we didn't get any confirmation, so we are having it here. I am uncomfortable about this because the dogs are still having accidents in the house. My concerns have been dismissed. So will spend 3 days cleaning the house, and then cooking Wednesday evening and Thursday. And then be too exhausted to enjoy being with family. At least I don't have to cook then go to work.

I had so much anxiety in high school about my grades that our family doc gave me valium. That's back when it was mother's little helper. I haven't had any since. I sense that every time I go to a doctor they see me as a drug seeker, so I don't bother to ask. I've had prozac (fell and broke my wrist) and celexa (gained 40#). So no thank you to any more psychotropics.

I made a new cookie recipe this morning but was way too sweet. I stirred up another recipe, but it needs to chill 3 hours before baking. Dh wants to give away cookies for Christmas and wants to try new recipes. I am all for baking something besides oatmeal.

The UW Huskies won yesterday and are still undefeated. The Seahawks are playing now, and ahead.

Ado Annie, ASN, RN · Nov 19, 2023

Rain all day today but Twin A still had to go work at the zoo. They've started their drive-through " Safari Lights" for Christmas every evening.

The rest of us had the turkey, dressing, mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes, and pecan pie. I'm stuffed and the kitchen is a mess. Hubs said he'd clean it up. We got into an argument because Twin B has the idealist near-socialist view of the world that young people do. He gets so angry that we "just don't get it." This time it started because I was sharing my glum thoughts lately about the prevalence of suffering in the world. So, my bad, I guess.

Rosalynn Carter has died. I think she and President Carter are remarkably good people.

toomuchbaloney · Nov 20, 2023

Ado Annie said:

Rain all day today but Twin A still had to go work at the zoo. They've started their drive-through " Safari Lights" for Christmas every evening.

The rest of us had the turkey, dressing, mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes, and pecan pie. I'm stuffed and the kitchen is a mess. Hubs said he'd clean it up. We got into an argument because Twin B has the idealist near-socialist view of the world that young people do. He gets so angry that we "just don't get it." This time it started because I was sharing my glum thoughts lately about the prevalence of suffering in the world. So, my bad, I guess.

Rosalynn Carter has died. I think she and President Carter are remarkably good people.

You get to model to your youngster how adults have a disagreement, get emotional, and then apologize if appropriate. It allows you to model finding common ground and resting there. Agreeing to revisit the discussion at a later time can give space and encourage thought (hopefully).

The Carters were an outstanding example of good intentions, grace and humility in political figures. Character such as theirs is decidedly NOT common in politics, ever, especially not now. The really authentic thing about Jimmy Carter is that he didn't pray publicly or speak much about his faith, but he sure did try to reflect his faith in his works. He'll be joining his lovely wife shortly, I expect.