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renne · Apr 6, 2014

The one thing I want to say is...even though you feel alone, you are not!! Good for you for mustering up the energy to get all your paperwork in...that is the first step, and when things seems so hopeless and depression overcomes, I know how hard even the simplest tasks are. Just do what you have in front of you today. Maybe it is ice cream:)

"Every journey begins with a single step", and be proud of yourself for doing that!

Earthmama · Apr 6, 2014

It takes a lot of courage to do what you're doing - to work through the fear of what may lie ahead. There have been many times that I've let that keep me from doing things I know I need to do. But once I finally bite the bullet and do it, I find things are never as bad as I make them out to be in my head. I try to just focus on the footwork, the things I can control. I can't control whether people hire me (unfortunately), but I can concentrate all my efforts and thinking on making sure I do every possible thing I can do to find a job. I find that focusing on my own tasks and following through on everything takes up a lot of time and a lot of space in my head that would otherwise be occupied by worry. Good luck to you, I know you can do this.

ellys2014 · Apr 6, 2014

Thank you! There is nothing better than a little bit of affirmation. It is a wonderful thing reaching out to others when you cannot get to a meeting. I have been paralyzed by fear and indecision. Thank God things have changed in the medical profession. A while back a nurse told me her father was a physician in the military back in World War 2. He saw much trauma and then he himself became addicted but took his life because of the shame he carried because "that sort of thing does not happen to those with the responsibility of being a healer". He felt all alone. But I am not, and you are right, I can find a job if I just keep on looking and doing the next right thing for myself and my recovery. I will keep communicating as I go, because I know it will keep me accountable.

give_me_serenity · Apr 7, 2014

Two years ago, I could not see any light at the end of the tunnel. I felt hopeless and was certain I would never practice nursing again. After 3 months of residential treatment and a year of IOP, I feel like I had a personality and attitude over haul. I can't let this disease beat me! I started thinking about my career again, so I hired an attorney and completed all the necessary paperwork to get my license back. All I had done originally was tell the board investigator what I had done. I was willing to let the board throw me in front of a moving train if that's what they deemed fit. My how things have changed!

My consent agreement started today along with my first call to see if I've been selected to submit. I can see a light at the end of the tunnel shining bright!!! In 9 months, I'll be reinstated under a probation agreement. I've learned to live life under life's terms and above all to be patient with myself and others. You will get there, my friend. Work a strong program and good things happen!

ellys2014 · Apr 7, 2014

I am doing the reinstatement paperwork now. I just got back from a meeting on Gratitude. We have got to keep it real simple. My first step is get the stuff done and show them I am ready to do whatever it takes. I am never going to give up before the miracle again. I want to move to another state but VA knows me, Georgia does not. Does anyone out there know anything about the Georgia Bd of Nursing? We are pretty lucky in VA. The monitoring program is very organized and run by great people. I do not want to get ahead of myself, just wondering.

Ahseepnwithpassion · May 9, 2014

Two years ago, I could not see any light at the end of the tunnel. I felt hopeless and was certain I would never practice nursing again. After 3 months of residential treatment and a year of IOP, I feel like I had a personality and attitude over haul. I can't let this disease beat me! I started thinking about my career again, so I hired an attorney and completed all the necessary paperwork to get my license back. All I had done originally was tell the board investigator what I had done. I was willing to let the board throw me in front of a moving train if that's what they deemed fit. My how things have changed!
My consent agreement started today along with my first call to see if I've been selected to submit. I can see a light at the end of the tunnel shining bright!!! In 9 months, I'll be reinstated under a probation agreement. I've learned to live life under life's terms and above all to be patient with myself and others. You will get there, my friend. Work a strong program and good things happen!

Give me serenity

Go girl! You give me so much hope. You are an inspiration to me. Met with board yesterday. May 7th. Waiting to see but knowing God is in control. Working on what I can do on a day to day basis to keep healing and continuing on this journey. We are all strong gifted and empathetic human beings. We are chosen. For that I am grateful!

Tigerboy1 · May 9, 2014

In 2012 I too gave up my ISNAP program here in Indiana. My life was a hot mess so too speak. I was suspended for a year and had to prove to the board that I could complete a full year if compliance so I dug myself up and out of the mess I made and here I am 4 days away from reinstatement. I ditched many old friends and got serious about my future. You can do it, proud of you.

Twoyearnurse · May 9, 2014

Great job give me serenity! I truly believe fear is what drives most of us here, in so far as we let it! There is nothing to be sorry for. If I did not have the strong support of my family and AA I would have given up, in those early days (and it is still quite early for me) they continued to push me forward and hold me accountable when I did not have the strength to do it myself. I know that sad, terrified, paralyzed feeling. It has kept me from making simple phone calls. You have made an incredibly big step, you should feel so so proud of yourself! I know I can get so frustrated sometimes because I look at most people and they make life look so easy. Tasks that frighten me have no effect on them, and then I remind myself to be patient with myself. I have been sick for a long time and am learning how to be well. Great job!