Return to the bedside

[Missmilo]

I have been an FNP for one year and I just resigned from what was an absolutely terrible job. I have many years ( 20+) of PACU, ICU, CCU and ED experience. As an RN that is. Those willing to hire me as an NP are only offering one terrible job after another. I have spent my life working in hospitals and I miss it soo much. Yet, I can't get a job working in a hospital as an NP. They want 3 years of experience in the area of specialty as an NP. They don't care about my RN background.

In fact, most worthwhile jobs want 3 years or more of NP experience.

I hate the long hours, rotten pay and poor benefits that seem to be the fate of an office FNP. I hate the office environment period.

I feel awful, I regret this more every day and I want to return to hospital RN life.. I want to return to three 12 hour shifts in a PACU or ED as a staff nurse and get my life back. In addition to rotten pay and benefits, My FNP experience was very lonely and beyond boring. I miss the fast pace of the hospital and the camaraderie of fellow nurses. All that time and money on my education will be wasted, but I'm starting not to care about that because I'm so miserable.

Has anyone else done this? Has anyone out there quit and gone back? Will I be able to go back? Will hospitals

allow it?

ANY advice on ditching this career path is greatly appreciated.

Thanks.

[Roxy2121, MSN]

I’m an NP currently working on my resume so that I can return to bedside nursing. I wish I had done my research about NP profession. It’s lonely and boring. The doctors I worked with were condescending and patronizing. I left one NP job for another and was no different. You are grilled for not meeting revenue quota. I can’t predict if patients will show up for their appointment or not. When you are a woman and black you are treated differently. After 4 years I was done. I quit 8 months ago to re-evaluate my career goals and future and now I’m returning to bedside nursing.

[Rnis, BSN, DNP, APRN, NP]

21 minutes ago, Roxy2121 said:

I’m an NP currently working on my resume so that I can return to bedside nursing. I wish I had done my research about NP profession. It’s lonely and boring. The doctors I worked with were condescending and patronizing. I left one NP job for another and was no different. You are grilled for not meeting revenue quota. I can’t predict if patients will show up for their appointment or not. When you are a woman and black you are treated differently. After 4 years I was done. I quit 8 months ago to re-evaluate my career goals and future and now I’m returning to bedside nursing.

I'm so sorry to hear that Roxy. While you will be highly valued at the bedside, I hate to hear that your experience was not one that was supportive because what a loss to patients who would have benefited from your care in primary care. Where I work, we would love to add to our our team especially if that would help our team be more representative of the population we serve. you should be valued, and I am sorry that hasn't happened.