I'm just really having a rough time this semester, and needed to rant somewhere. Figured who else could understand better than other nursing students, right? :)
I've been on the verge of quitting nursing school all semester - now bear in mind it's only been about 4 weeks, but still...
I'm so stressed out I don't know what to do. I've been missing class, and today I even missed a clinical seminar - unexcused clinical absence, plus docked points for responsibility and accountability.
Some of my clinicals this semester are 12h long, in a town that's about 110 miles from where I live. Last night, I didn't get home until 10pm and still had paperwork due this morning at 8:30am (at school, 70 miles from here).
My son gets 2-3 spankings a week at school, and comes home with tons of work he hasn't completed. His teachers say he's disrupting the other students....
My three year old is clingy, whiney, and having tantrums. I don't have enough time for either of my kids, and if I do I feel like I'm neglecting my schoolwork. I can't find enough time to be a good mom and a good student.
My husband's brother OD'd and is in a drug treatment facility (thank goodness he's okay).
My grandfather passed away and I had to play the piano at his funeral, at the last minute.
My husband left his job in another part of the state to move "home." I'm really glad to have him back, but it totally disrupted my routine of being on my own last semester. Plus, now we have no income and no health insurance (but I had an abnormal pap I'm supposed to get repeated...)
My house is a huge mess and I just can't get the energy to get/keep it clean.
I hit a deer and have to repair my truck, but oops! No income, right?
I failed my first test in my cultural competency class.
For class (5d/wk) I have to commute 70 miles one way to school.
I'm worried about my great-aunt (in her 80s) who is having to keep her great-grandkids (her son is disabled) who are 6wks and 3y - she often calls my husband and I and asks for help (that's why I missed class today).
My mother has been ill, can't sleep, looks terrible, and won't go to the doctor.
I come home crying 2-3 times a week, and while I'm normally anal about school/grades, now I'm just feeling plain apathetic.
Maybe I'm worrying too much about other people, and not enough about myself? I probably sound like a big, whiney brat, but I just had to get all this out somewhere. I'm so overwhelmed. Anyone have any advice at all? I'll take whatever I can get at this point...