I've always been able to separate my emotions from the work. Often, after the fact, when the patient doesn't make it and I'm speaking with the family I'll feel bad for them, I empathize with their pain, but I've just seen so many die in front of me that it doesn't phase me, yet I don't think it ever did.
In the ED I work at now is a nurse, with whom I also worked at in the ED where I was told to stop listening to heart sounds. This nurse doesn't even own a stethoscope. I am not exaggerating. I'm not sure how one assesses the effectiveness of breathing treatments, etc, without one, but I've worked other EDs where I never saw nurses with this vital piece of equipment.
Really, OP needs to read a book. OP would then understand things like overdrive suppression and why it's ineffective when the ventricles take over, etc.
Perhaps you've heard the expression "the fish rots from the head?" Toby has created a culture where nurses have no say and are expendable. Why do CCF nurses wear all white? Because Toby says that's what the uniforms will be in spite of every Clinic nurse I know not liking all white. Gets dirty too easy. At Metro, on the other hand, the nurses voted on their uniforms. Totally different culture. Some people prefer a totalitarian regime. The majority, however, prefer a democratic system. And free speech. Just not here.
