3 1/2 years of sobriety, which you did on your own and maintain on your own and they still want to "monitor " you? ridiculous! I'm sorry this is happening to you but I promise, you got this!! And yes, it will be overwhelming and scary at first. My first 3-4 months were the worst. It gets better, I promise. Sometimes I forget I'm even in this program ( until I have to do a test) Remember we're here and don't be afraid to ask questions or just vent bc your pissed off!