For me, it's not just the speaking that bothers me. It's everything about it...being around people, holding hands with people I don't know, how everyone there wants to be there because this works for them, the steps, the prayers, everything. I've attended meetings, many meetings. I've tried. In addiction, as well as mental illness, you can't go by the "one size fits all" approach. It's not. For me, dealing with my mental illness comes first because with that dealt with, I have NO desire to use. These people say they think about drinking every day and that there are certain triggers for them. I don't have those feelings now that I'm on an antidepressant that works for me. AA/NA does nothing fo my sobriety, but Effexor does. It's the difference between life and death for me and you would thin Boards Of Nursing would recognize the difference.