So, I’m currently doing some self reflection. I have recently switched back to agency nursing after my recent fiasco of losing my job (see previous post for more details.) I used to feel so confident and outgoing. Up until all of this happened (and even during termination.) I was used to being complimented. I was frequently told how I was a good nurse, a strong nurse. How I had excellent patient rapport and strong clinical judgment. I never had complaints from coworkers or patients. And Although I realize it doesn’t matter a ton, I had been nominated several times for Daisy Awards as well as a hospital based award. I was always aware I had more room to go, more knowledge to learn, people who always knew more or were better at certain things than I was and I always did my best to be the best I could be and accept and improve on my weaknesses. But now I’m failing.
I spent two weeks at a new facility when my agency called today and said I was cancelled from this particular facility because I “wouldn’t talk to their staff.” I realize now that I came across as probably stuck up and “better than them.” But honestly it’s because I was so shy and so anxious. So instead of sitting around the desk, gossiping with their employees, I stayed near my assignment and focused on my med pass, treatments, call lights and my residents. I thought I was doing the right thing but I guess not.
Long story short, how do I overcome this? How do I make sure that moving forward other perm staff don’t view me as stuck up? What is the best way to approach these new facilities and new people since my ego and confidence has been severely damaged?