Well, I have been doing my research on this topic so I know I'm not the only one but just wanted to share that I will be graduating in less than 4 weeks now. Yes, it is supposed to be one of the happiest times of our lives and, yes, everyone I mention this to gets the same wide eyed happy expression as they congratulate me. And no, I don't understand fully why I don't feel so happy about this change. But I DO get the basics of it:
Graduation from nursing school = leaving behind a year (or years) of routine, comfort and - at least in my case - caring professors who take an active interest in you as a person. I like studying, I like the shared experiences of clinicals and going through "firsts" with some of the other students, and I like being able to walk into any of my professors doors at a moments notice and just talk to them. Sure, I can still do these things after graduation - Ill probably be working at the hospital I am graduating from after all, but it's a different dynamic. There goes the routine, the certainty, the friendship, the... I don't know.. the whatever that special thing is that has made the past year what it has been.
It may be me - I don't handle change very well. Goodbyes have never been my thing; that's one of the reasons I went into nursing, to get better at goodbyes. Ironic huh?
Just wondering if anyone has been there, done that, bought the t-shirt?
PS - I get that it's a great thing and I AM extremely proud and grateful. Just gonna miss some of this is all :)