First I have to explain that I was formerly an LPN. 15 years in long-term care. In my former position I had gained much respect from my co-workers, nurses assistants, LPNs & Rns. I worked as a charge nurse quite often, and received a job recommendation that brought tears to my eyes. I graduated 3 months ago, and am now an RN! I am so excited to finally be an RN. I'm working on a med/surg unit in a hospital, something I've always wanted to do. I usually don't tell anyone about my LPN experience, and I quite often feel very intimidated at my new job. I know I often ask questions that I really don't need to ask, but I'm feeling insecure, and just want reassurance that I'm doing the right thing. I'm really enjoying my job very much, I've been there 2 and 1/2 months, and I've been off orientation for about 1 month.
My preceptor has been there for 20+ years, she is charge nurse, and is very respected by all the nurses. She is also quite negative, and is rather grumpy.I feel that she's burned-out. I've been trying to not ask so many questions, but sometimes feeling insecure, they just blurt out. The other night I was asking her a question about something she had just said (non-nursing subject) and I didn't really hear her. It was change of shift after a very difficult shift for all of us. d/t staffing mistakes, we were short-staffed, and had numerous admits. There were 3 of us with 22 patients, 8 were mine. Her response was, " If you ask me one more dumb question.....", and she said it in a very loud, annoyed manner, while flailing her arms in the air. There were about 5 other people there, and I just wanted to crawl under a rock. Now I'll feel humiliated when i return to work tomorrow. And I'm not confronting her, I'm the newbie, & she's very, very experienced. But, I'm certainly not asking her anything unless it's absolutely imperative. I'll try to find someone else to ask. I'm a very positive, happy, and, I feel, professional woman. I've worked with various different personality types in my healthcare career; but I'm feeling quite embarrassed right now. It certainly can be exciting, but difficult to start over again.