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  1. Hargrove86

    Quitting Nursing School

    rudy5095, it's funny that you reply to this post today. Shortly after I wrote the original post, I dropped out of nursing school. I felt like such a loser. I still have a hard time explaining myself to people even though I shouldn't have to. Nursing wasn't for me, and I am still very sure of that. I wasn't grossed out by anything, I just didn't like the reality of what nursing was. I agree that it seemed like mostly doling out meds and charting. The nurses never seemed to have time and for me I was dreading every shift as a student nurse. I couldn't imagine feeling that way for the rest of my working life. I have worked on farms my entire life and that work is hard but I never dread doing it. I like feeling like I know what I am doing and not just waiting for myself to screw up. I don't regret leaving nursing school at all. Today was the day my class did final presentations and had their last day of clinicals. I will admit, that it is not easy seeing all these girls I went to school with posting on Facebook about how good it feels to be done and just a few weeks away from pinning. I'm a year out of leaving school and still not sure what I am doing. I am supposed to start working as an ophthalmic technician in January. I am actually sort fo excited because I think it will be a lot less overwhelming and the hours are so much better. I totally know how you feel with the panic attacks and that feeling of never being able to keep up. Some people seem to thrive on such a challenge, but not me. I want to go to work, know what my task is, and feel like I know what I'm doing. Nursing was just too stressful for me. Since you know for sure it is not for you, good for you for moving on! People can make you feel so crappy for quitting because they say it;s such a good career path. But I've come to notice that it is not a good path if you are going to hate your life, dread every day you go to work, and be so stressed that you can't function. There's a million other jobs out there, go find the one that makes you happy. Sounds like you have a lot of options. Good luck! Feel free to message me if you want to talk about it. I know it's not the easiest decision :)
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    UMSON Spring 2013

    You beat me to it, April!
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    Quitting Nursing School

    Thank you all so much for your advice! This is a hard decision, but as the week as worn on, I have become more at peace with the idea of moving on. I am 26, single and not dating, don't have children...I am definintely in a different situation than many. I don't have anyone to do this for but me. I can't even describe how much I hate my life right now and what a roller coaster I am on. I went to classes yesterday, took my Med/Surg exam and felt like I knew nothing. Waiting on the grad, but I think my mind is made up. My family has been so supportive of me through all of this. They are not judging me for leaving; they really just want to see me happy. I am thinking of just dropping my Med/Surg 7 credit class and keeping the 8 credits of 3 easier classes. This gives me some time to think, be less stressed, and still haev my spot at school incase I change my mind. I don't see myself changing my mind, but at least it's there. Sueall, thank you for your story! It sounds like you felt exactlty the way I do. I don't feel like I'm making the wrong decision for me, but I also worry about what to do next. What are you doing now? You don't regret dropping out? I am feeling so much better thinking about not doing this anymore. I don't care anymore about learning or the patients and that is such a red flag saying this just isn't for me. I always really wanted to be a vet tech, but the pay is so low, I talked myself out of it and decided to do humans instead. It is NOT the same thing for me. I don't have the deepseated love for people, I have for animals. I just felt like I could do nursing even if I didn't love it and have it finance my love for animals. But what good am I to anyone if I am miserable in my work? My friend sent me this quote the other day and it all clicked: The most dangerous risk of all - the risk of spending your life not doing what you want on the bet you can buy yourself the freedom to do it later.
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    Quitting Nursing School

    So I am in my second semester junior year in my BSN program. This is my second degree, so I spent a year taking a few prerequisites part-time before getting accepted into this program. It's one of the top ranked programs in the nation and part of me feels terrible that I took a spot that some other person would have loved to have had. My first semester was challenging and terrifying but I wound up with a 3.5 and did pretty well. I got a student nursing position over the summer and it completely rocked my confidence. I didn't feel ready for 8 patients of my own after only having 4 clinical days my first semester. I wound up leaving the job about a month in because I was so unhappy. I went back this semester and my Adult Health Med/Surg class and clinical just has me wrecked. I have never hated my life so much. I have yet to find one redeeming thing about nursing. I'm waiting for that moment of awakening where I say this is why I did this. It has not come. I have no desire to study, I feel defeated. Most of all I don't feel like this is me. College my first time around was a challenge and annoying, but I never hated it to this level. I am crying every night (and I am not a person who cries...ever!). My heart rate is out of this world, I have an ulcer, and I can't function. I know I am depressed. I am just a wreck. The weirdest thing of all is that all this time I never really saw myself in the future being a nurse. I thought it would be nice, but as I planned my life in my head, I never saw myself being a nurse. I went into this hoping to make good enough money, help my family and have the skills to be able to care for my parents in home when they age. I didn't do it because I love nursing. I love animals and the outdoors. My goal is to move to North Carolina in May of 2014 with my sister at a brewery that is opening there. I have my CNA and now I am thinking of quitting school and working full time as a home care CNA. Make money instead of pour it all into school doing something I'm not even sure I will actually do in life and if I do I may hate it. I had a decent amount of aid through this semester, so I haven't broken the bank paying for school so far and don't have any debt. However, my grants end this semester so I will have to pay a lot more for my last two semesters (especially since I plan to move and cannot take advantage of the preceptorship programs since I have to committ time to the local hospital after graduation). I feel quitting is right for me, but I also have doubts. Have I wasted my time? So many people have supported me in this and I hate to let them down. Will I be able to support myself doing something else? I havenever quit anything in my life, but I've also never been so unhappy. Any advice?
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    OR Nursing Career

    Thank you all so much for your input. It doesn't help that none of my instructors ever worked in the OR. I believe they are just assuming things and not speaking from experience. I really want to work in an area of nursing where I can focus on one or few patients instead of having to juggle a ton of them and not being able to really give much attention to any of them. I have been in on a few surgeries just to observe, but will look for the opportunity to shadow an OR nurse specifically. When I went in I focused more on the surgery than the nurses role and this time around I would do the opposite. Thank you so much and I'm glad to hear you love your jobs!
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    Nursing Student Hating Life

    Thanks everyone! Ok, I am so glad that I am not the only one feeling this way. I just expected to love nursing because I feel like it's a profession you need to love in order to be any good at it. And I'm not feeling the love. I feel like I am under the microscope and as someone Elisheval said call me out as a "faker". I got the job this summer but was there less than a month. The stress was just making me hate life. I've always worked with horses and other animals and loved it, so I am thinking of just getting a job I enjoy while I go through school because at least it won't add any more stress. I have my CNA license and feel badly not using it, but right now the thought of spending anymore time doing nursing related activities than required by school just makes me want to die. I am so hoping that it really is something that changes with time!
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    Nursing Student Hating Life

    I have worked really hard to go back to school and earn another degree...my BSN. Even with my prior degree coursework, I had about a year of prerequisites and finally got into a really great nursing school. My first semester was tough but I did well. This summer I applied to student nursing positions and got a job at a great hospital in no time. I started on the unit and HATED it! The people on the staff were rude, my manager unresponsive, and I felt completely unprepared to be set free with 8 plus patients of my own. We only had 4 clinical days in a senior lont-term care center during our first semester. Maybe I just need more clinical experience, but that experience has me rocked. I wound up hracefully bowing out before orientation was over because I was so unhappy and stressed. I am now back in that hospital for clinicals this semester. I am scared to death. I feel like bedside nursing may not be for me. Maybe nursing isn't for me. Has anyone else felt this way? Like they don't know enough or are going to make a terrible nurse? I always wanted to be an OR nurse, but my professors are telling me it's boring and you lose all your skills. I feel so lost. Other classmates are working all the time in the hospital and going to school and loving it....I am not loving it. Infact, I hate it. Mostly because I have no confidence in myself. Ah road block!
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    OR Nursing Career

    Hey to all you OR nurses. I would really love to know what it is like being an OR nurse. Going into nursing this is the area I always wanted to end up in. But now that I am in school, my professors are telling me that it is very boring and I will lose all of my skills. I am currently getting my BSN and don't plan on going any higher in my education. I have a previous degree already and can't see myself being in school any more after I finish up next year. Could you let me know what you like about being an OR nurse? Am I really going to "lose" my skills or are my instructors, who are bedside nurses, just picking on another area they know nothing about? Thanks for any input you can give me. I feel lost now!
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    Fall 2012 University of Maryland School of Nursing Students

    Parking in the main garage is $5 for a pass each semester and $5/day for each day you use the lot. There are other options, but for me this was the best. Cheaper than parking in any other lot except maybe biopark, but you have to cross MLK with that one. Books for the first semester were over $1,000 new. I bought mine used from a student for about $360 and was able to sell them all on Amazon at the end of the year and make back all of my money.
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    Fall 2012 University of Maryland School of Nursing Students

    Hey the student positions have been filled, sorry guys. I haven't checked this account for awhile. As far as costs at UMSON go... I am a traditional BSN student (2 year track). I am in state and also get my basic health insurance (no vision, no dental - those are extra!) through the school since I am not married, not on my parent's insurance, and unable to work fulltime while in school. Here are my spring 2012 costs: Registration Fees: $1,913 Health Insurance: $1,410 Registration Tuition: $3,749 Total Term Charges: $7,072 So if you are not getting insurance through the school and are instate you are looking at $5,662 a semester at the current rate. I do have a scholarship through the school, a federal grant and a delegate scholarship which help offset some of the costs. I know if you are out of state, the costs are almost double and ridiculous. Summer classes are not worth paying out of pocket as you basically pay a flat fee during regular semesters (not per credit like you do over the summer) as long as you are over 12 credits. And a 3 credit summer class is well over $1,000 and so much worse if you are out of state.
  11. Hey! Congrats to anyone who got into UMSON for this upcoming semester! You're going to love it! I just finished my first semester :) I wanted to reach out to all of you Fall 2012 students to see if anyone is looking for student nursing positions? I know several recruiters who are looking for people who will graduate in May 2014. I also have most of the first semester textbooks for sale. And quite a few pairs of scrub pants for the uniform also. If you need anything, let me know. I'm trying to sell the ones I don't need to keep for reference and that's most of them. Best of luck to you all! Enjoy your summer :)
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    UMB Spring 2012

    tippeny - I would like to meet up if you are willing. I too want to get there early to be safe and see what traffic is like. You can text or call me or e-mail me to make plans if you like. a.k.dreyer@gmail.com and 443.846.3747.
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    UMB Spring 2012

    aeonic - i feel the exact same way! i am so terrified i am forgetting something and not prepared. i am overwhelmed. excited but nervous and overwhelmed! ah!
  14. Yes, I am close to JHU...like 25 min away. I volunteer for JHU, the Bayview campus. I haven't looked into specifics yet since I am not yet eligible. But I can ask who to contact next time I go in to volunteer. If I get info, I will let you know.
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    UMB Spring 2012

    I got into BB tonight. Everything is paid and has been for awhile. I have to say, all the info posted on BB is overwhelming! Ahhh!
  16. I am in Maryland. Good luck to you. That's crazy that in CA you don't get your license after your first semester in the program.
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