For those of you who have this same sentiment...how many CRNA jobs have you had? How many different regions of the country have you worked in? I ask this, because I see and know so many people who finished school and took the first open job at the major hospital we trained at...often accepting the job before graduating. Some did so because they lived in the area already and did not want to move. Some did so because they were worried about actually getting a job and having a paycheck asap after graduation. The mothership hospital we trained at is a huge ACT practice facility where tensions are always high and pay is ridiculously low. I know money is not everything, but having a CEO offer you 200K with great benefits give you a great, appreciated feeling. I did not leave my training area simply for the money, but I could not see myself working for 160K with no autonomy in a virtual continuation of school where I had no autonomy. I left my home and the area where my mom and dad live and moved to a rural town ten hours away because they were offering me a pile more money and complete autonomy. When I interviewed, it was obvious that the people working at the hospital were very happy and considered their co-workers family. The environment in the surgical department was laid back, friendly, and saturated with mutual appreciation and respect for EVERYONE. The cases are bread and butter, so I am rarely in a case for more than 2.5 hours, but it does not matter because during a 3 hour case, the time flies, as everyone in the room is interacting in a serious but absolutely relaxed and often fun manner. I pre-op all my patients, and despite only spending 5 minutes or less preoperatively with them, I feel that during that time, the act of explaining the anesthetic, answering their questions, and doing everything I can to make them comfortable and relaxed at a time where they are likely the most anxious and stressed that they have ever been...I find that in that short time, I do more for the patient than I ever did in a 12 hour shift as an RN even if I was only taking care of one patient that shift. I have yet, in 4 years of working at this facility, to get up and wish that I did not have to go to work. I can assure you that if I were working at any of the hospitals that I worked in for the ten years before CRNA school or all but one of the dozens of clinical sites that I trained in, I would be having to drag my are into work every morning and would be sitting on the stool longing for the moment that I could go home. My point is simply this...there ARE fantastic jobs out there that are fantastic not simply because of the pay or location or reputation or benefits....but they are great because of the culture within the facility. If you are thinking you made a mistake and are thinking of ditching the profession...open your mind to seeking out your CRNA job utopia. Don't limit yourself to any geographic location, and don't exclude anywhere because of the location. Go interview somewhere that offers autonomy and good compensation and interview them while you are there...find a place where employees are happy and tight with each other and make a move. Give that a shot instead of bailing on something you have worked so hard for and instead of sticking with a job that you are not enjoying. As someone who has worked in multiple hospitals in multiple states...trust me when I say that if you are not happy in your job, there is a far greater chance that you are not happy because of where you are working vs what you are doing. Open your mind and do not give up without trying to find the right fit for you.