I'll join the club. I graduate in May also.
I was in the elevator with a couple of my classmates on our way to our clinical floors, when we all voiced how we dreaded coming to clinicals lately. Then someone mentioned that thats what we were gonna go the rest of our lives. That was scary.
Then I got to my patients room, in the SICU, and I was thankful that the nurse was in there the whole day with me. HELLO? I graduate in may, this may.
Then, I was sooo happy when 1 pm rolled around and our instructor let us go a little early (after post-conference and lunch, about 2pm.) Went home, did laundry, took a nap, went to the grocery store, started dinner, and then the lightbulb went off again (3rd time that day) the nurse I was working with was still at work. Probably without much of a break.
So how, I ask myself, am I gonna transform myself into a real nurse, who works 12, yes 12 hours a day, and has to do that on nights, weekends, holidays, and will actually be responsible for another (or 6) person's life?
I am really happy to be graduating, I just can't believe that I'm graduating, and that graduating means I have to be a nurse now......that just seems crazy.
You are not alone.