You sound like me. If I had known before nursing school that I would end up working Med-Surge upon graduation, I never would have applied. Had less than zero interest in this kind of nursing. At all.
However, new grad jobs being scarce I felt grateful to be employed in a Med-Surge unit about 8 weeks after NCLEX. I didn'tjust dislike it, I HATED it...hated the huge number of tasks I needed to remember how to do (TPN, PICC dressing changes, dropping NG tube, Foleys, rectal tube placement, IV's, etc.). I wanted to be a Mom-Baby nurse dammit! On the really rough nights, I drove home in a daze, too overwhelmed to cry.
The first 6 to 8 months were excruciating. I made mistakes, was too busy to pee, the patients were difficult and I hated my life. Could not wait to escape.
Then suddenly, around the 9 month mark...things got easier. Everything fell into place. I became really good at what I was doing and my assessments were complimented by MD's. Finally, I am actually liking what I do now and feel comfortable. Not like I know it all by ANY stretch of the imagination, but comfortable and familiar with my resources.
It gets better. Plus, I know that with another couple of years in Med-Surge I can go anywhere. The boost to my confidence in defeating this beast has been invaluable. Wishing you all the luck in the world!