Totally agree! I work with another RN who has been a nurse for at least 15 yrs. She still amazes me with her inability to get it together and deal with hard pt sets. To me, as a
I worked fulltime my first year. Hated it. It was depressing to work every other weekend, to be sleeping half of the week (worked nights), and to watch my family go off having fun when I had to work or sleep. I felt very disconnected from my kids. So after a year I changed to contingent. Only had to do one weekend shift per schedule, and one other regular shift. I still worked 2-3 shifts a week (usually rotating two one week, three the next). I slowed my roll and was able to manage my new career a bit better. After four years working in an area of nursing I have no interest in (med-surge, mostly surgical), I have landed a job in an area I genuinely feel I will love. It is an area I worked in as a nursing student. I could have really ditched the nursing profession all together that first year, it was difficult to acclimate.
I think that working in the ER is a hard thing to do with not much experience. I prefer stable pts myself. I agree with the previous poster who told you to put your family first. I blew mine off for 3 yrs when I was in school and then starting my job. I am fortunate that I don't have any student loans and my husband can pay our bills. I never wanted him to get used to my big paychecks . I went into nursing for the good pay and the flexible hours to help us pay for extras for the kids and retirement, vacations, etc. It has been good knowing that if it gets that bad, I can walk. Thankfully it looks like things are going to change for the better, I am looking forward to beginning my new job with a totally different pt population :).
You need to find the area of nursing you can feel competent and good in, and also the shifts or schedule that work for you and your family. It is possible. Hang in there!