Here's the deal, I attended Charity School of Nursing and completed Basics, 1st semester and Nac 1 (nursing of the adult client 1) the 2nd semester, which I had to repeat because I got a 76.67 and needed a 77 to pass. I passed the second time with a 79, and then moved on to my 3rd semester (which was Peds/Maternal Health, the first rotation, and mental health the second rotation. I failed the first rotation of PCN (parent child nursing) with a 76.23, so now I'm out of the program. During this time, I was taking care of my mother who was very sick with CHF and had had a stroke 16 years ago which left her unable to speak and walk due to hemiparesis to the right side. My mom (my beloved heart) passed away mid April. This left me with maintaining her estate, etc, as my dad had passed away in 2003. We just recently sold her house so I have that behind me now. I also am divorced with three kids ages 13, and twins 11. My ex doesn't help with child support so I lived on loans and PRN work at a local hospital. I telling you this so you have a little background information and have a better understanding of where I coming from.
Because of my failing out of the program, it has left me feeling lost with no direction in life when it all was just a hands link away. It has totally crushed my self confidence on passing another nursing program, thus, the reason I writing this. I need to find my hope again and regain my sense of direction in my nursing career. As you've read, I've completed my first year of nursing school so I qualify for the excelsior program but I'm afraid to invest the little money I earn from working at the hospital as a CNA on a med/surg oncology floor and "fail" again along with upfront money lost. Are most of you already LPN's? Is there anyone here who's completed their first year of nursing and then entered excelsior? I feel that I'm strong student (entered nursing school with a 3.8) but then I just couldn't get out of the mid 70's (average) as a grade in nursing school. I'm a very analitical thinker and I think that caused wrong choices on exams bc I tend to think way further than what I should although some questions required me to do so. I'm just a flippin mess when it comes to testing (not anxiety wise) just with the way I critically think....I go way beyond sometimes and it bites me everytime. What is your opinion with the excelsior program compared to your nursing experience already obtained? I know you can't tell me how well I'll do but a little reassurance helps me make a decision. I'm 44 and need to finish way one or another. Thanks ahead for the advise I hope to receive. :heartbeat