After 20+ years of dealing with New Grads I've had plenty of experience with all three kinds. Your type:welcome: I adore. You may start out timid, but you watch, you learn and you grow into terrific ER Nurses. The second type :chair: tend to remove themselves from anything they are unsure of. These you'll find in the bathroom during a code. With an understanding, nurturing preceptor about 60% do succeed. The third type:angryfire ;The "I Know it All " type are dangerous. They don't ask questions, they just speed through things, not even noticing they are making mistakes. They need to be watched constantly. We had one recently that decided he would give PO contrast to a patient with a probable perf'd bowel. An astute new nurse stopped him and called over a preceptor. He immediately started arguing with that nurse who had been a nurse long enought to have delivered him. He just wouldn't shut-up:trout: He was taken off the floor, sat down and made to explain everything that could go wrong with what he intended to do. Than he was told what the worse case senario might be. That would be "DEATH" That humbeled him for about 2 days, Than he was back to being:thankya: his old know it all self. I'm really not sure he is going to make it. Very few of the "Know it all" make it very far. An a few of them end-up with law suits. Many experienced preceptors refuse to precept these folks because of the unacceptal risk associated with their behavior.
Take your time, Make sure you understand what you are doing and what the expectations are. You sound like you will be a good, caring, conscious nurse and any hospital would be thrilled to have you.