RN217isbroken BSN

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Being unemployed 15 years giving care, learning teaching and mentoring. I am now unemployed. I used to be a Rescue Ninja now I am Broken.

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About RN217isbroken

RN217isbroken has 18 years experience as a BSN and specializes in ICU.

After serving in the military as an active duty MP, I decided to get out and pursue critical care nursing. It was  stretch but helping people at the most their most vulnerable point and supporting them in any way I can has become my drug addiction. If I did not know why or how the disease process happened I would not pretend I did, I would help patient and family to find solutions to cope. Outcomes to trauma explanation of medication making the patient the leader in their own care was powerful for them. I felt everyday was not hospital administration or coworkers gossip, I am always ready for a different patient and how they are going to affect my nursing care. I love people I love getting to know them and finding answers with them. In the ICU it was mostly family teaching and learning how to cope. I cried with them I corrected them I protected my patient and I advocated for them. Now I am unemployed.....tbh the whole story when I tell it makes me sound like a victim I am not!  I am not an addict and I definitely was not negligent or found incompetent. I was dishonest, no excuses but I have to say with out a BLS hands on class available due to lock downs during covid and trying to find a job with out BLS, had me desperate as a single mom sole provided I was dishonest. I never worked with out these certs. but I was reported to the board and I have been out of work off on and spiraling down a financial drain. My end of career was not suppose to be like this. I was suppose to buy a house pay for my girls college and keep my son playing sports. Now I cant afford a coffee at Starbucks. I am faced with depression and regret. a brittle self confidence and no motivation to try to be an excellent healthcare provider anymore. Is this burn out ? Is it a sign? Should I write a book or change careers? I have wrestled with the wackiest of ideas yet always come back to how hard I worked and I will never be it again. I am 47 and starting at the bottom is not impossible but soul wrenching and depressing. I don't know what that is........not pride not low self esteem or worth..........but as if my career has been highjacked. There are a few things I have learned about my self and ideas I have kicked around like why is there no help sponsor or advisor for nurses who have these issues? The investigator I report to is not on my side I can tell I am intimidated by her and I am scared of no one. I hate to check in with her and with any question I have it is met with a sarcastic blunt cold response, but I guess that is her job/ But really nurses who are on "the drug and alchol plan" are sponsored.......? why not the other sidelined RN's Well if you have any Good News drop me a line, if you have any questions I am happy to help if I know and most importantly if you know of any place that can give me a second chance please do not hesitate to message me. To all my fellow nurses .......I miss you and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!! 

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  1. RN217isbroken

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    RN217isbroken replied to RN217isbroken's topic in Nursing Career

    Not happen with patient care, I was not on contract I was applying, but agreed deceptive behavior is deceptive. consider my spotless 16 years 5 states veteran history and motivation of a once in a...
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    RN217isbroken replied to RN217isbroken's topic in Nursing Career

    I'm fine! I was deceptive and I should have handled myself better. As for Covid 2020-2021 BLS hands on portion not a class available AT ALL it was the thick of it 11/2020 in fact waivers were given...
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    RN217isbroken replied to RN217isbroken's topic in Nursing Career

    You are such a nurse!! LOL I love it thank you so much. I am honored by your generosity and overwhelming depth of willing to help and serve a fellow nurse in need. I appreciate you and I would go to...
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    RN217isbroken replied to RN217isbroken's topic in Nursing Career

    No worries at this point I always say I have nothing else left to lose, I'm the only thing that I am 100% 100% confident of is my patient care and that's all I care about coworkers management admin....
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    RN217isbroken replied to RN217isbroken's topic in Nursing Career

    You're very right it took me a couple tries, and I had to identify some of my areas of where I went wrong but interviews key ! it was the first part of getting hired I looked at it's all delivery and...
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    RN217isbroken replied to RN217isbroken's topic in Nursing Career

    New Braunsfeld/ San Antonio Im open to anything that lets me get my reputation and professional licensing back where it needs to be. I don't have anything to lose, I need a job so bad...
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    RN217isbroken replied to RN217isbroken's topic in Nursing Career

    Thank you for all your advice and taking the time to read my concerns and offer your advice. I miss that. I may write a book
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    RN217isbroken replied to RN217isbroken's topic in Nursing Career

    Yes, I apologize I am new to this..... its a mess. Court order is 12 months 64 hours a month, and warning stip will remain but not encumber. My Compact will return and it will FOREVER be in NURSYS....
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    RN217isbroken replied to RN217isbroken's topic in Nursing Career

    I lived and worked in Dallas for 5 years. I loved it, BUMC CV pre Heart transplant, and I helped open Baylor McKinney. I worked in SICU at Parkland before they moved to the Big House. Yes I did...
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    RN217isbroken replied to RN217isbroken's topic in Nursing Career

    I have applied to US Renal and Fresenius several times not even getting to an interview. The local hospitals all interview send my hire info to HR, I walk out talking with the manager about my rate...
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    RN217isbroken posted a topic in Nursing Career

    I have been an RN for 15 years licensed in 4 states, been in TX last 4 years. I was dishonest during covid and could not find a hands on BLS. The nursing board was alerted and I was given a warning...