Hi everyone,
I'm in my last semester of nursing school, and I'm having issues with one of the instructors. I understand that nursing school is tough and the instructors want you to be the best, but I don't feel like this is the case in my situation.
My program is set up to where you have one set of instructors for the first two semesters and then a different set for the last two, so this is only my second time with this particular person. I had absolutely no problems with her in the Spring, but something changed this time and I'm not sure what I did.
The way our clinical schedule is set up, we have each instructor for 2-4 weeks a piece so that we can go to each unit with them. The two weeks I had her made me want to quit. I was really questioning if I wanted to continue in the program, even this close to graduation.
During clinical she 'matter of factly' told me that I was never going to be a specialty nurse because I didn't have it in me because she didn't like my nurses note. She then turned to my classmate and encouraged her to follow her dreams of becoming a CRNA and to keep her "eyes on the prize". I went to the bathroom and cried after she left because I'd never been talked to like that. It was a total slap in the face because I had told her the day before that I wanted to work in the OR, so she was intentionally trying to hurt my feelings. She also wrote very rude and untrue things on my clinical evaluation form. It was very unprofessional and catty. I had written in the journal summary portion (where we're supposed to reflect on what we learned that week) that I had learned a lot about how the charting system worked and I knew that was going to benefit me in my career. At the bottom she wrote "I'm sure you DID learn how to navigate it because all you did was sit down all day". This was completely untrue. I know in the end it boils down to my word against hers, but I was taking care of a patient who was unconscious and on a vent with a PEG tube so all of his care took twice as long. My nurse was letting me do everything, and since I had never taken care of a patient in that condition it took me a little longer than someone who was experienced.
Also when I went in for my midterm evaluation with her, I told her I had to leave a little early because I had an interview. She asked me where and I told her, from there she acted as though she was talking to herself and chuckled and said "I'm not going to call them... I am not going to call them". As if she would call and tell them I wasn't capable of taking the job.
I don't feel like this is normal behavior from an instructor to a student. And I'm severely stressed because during that meeting with her she told me that she was taking me out of my normal clinical group and bringing me back into her unit because she "knew I was capable of more". I feel like she's just doing it so she can be mean to me honestly. I
I've considered reaching out and speaking to someone about it but I'm afraid that if I do and it gets back to her that it'll get worse on me. I'm trying to keep my head down and just get through these last through weeks but it's playing on my mental health pretty bad. I feel like I've came this entire way and I'm not capable of doing it anymore.
Sorry it's so long.
Thank you for taking the time to read it.