Hi all, I’m not in recovery, however, a complaint was filed against me in 2015 when I worked a 12 hr nightshift, my 3rd in a row, at a new job and had no sleep that day because I received devastating news that I had lost a family member in a terrible accident. I had spent the day trying to get information and grieving. I should’ve called in, but I didn’t. As a result, at work that night I was distracted, had difficulty focusing, nodded off, etc. There were no errors, diversion, neglect but a complaint was called in. I was petrified and did a very bad thing, I tried to ignore it. Therefore I missed a deadline and the complaint was elevated. I paid a non aggressive attorney 10k trying to mediate and resolve it but it was too late. I was offered 12 months indirect supervision with no penalty to my practice. I had to take 3 very expensive educational classes, I had to do at least 64hrs direct care a month (not administrative) and register with Recovery Trek, check it daily and provide a sample once a month. All the attorney did was make money and drag it out. When it was almost completed, 1 month before the 12 months was over, I went in and worked an extra nightshift, went home and fell asleep on the couch and woke up after 3pm which is the deadline for checking Recovery Trek to see if you have to give a sample. It wouldn’t have been so bad but I had been chosen to test that day. As soon as I heard from my contact at the board I immediately went and tested. I was devastated, I offered to test as many times they wanted till the end, but of course they chose to extend the order for 6 months. Due to job changes, etc the last month is finally coming up again in July. I’ve always tested once a month. I tested May 25th this week, then when I checked in yesterday, the 28th I had to test again. That’s never happened, I’m so afraid something is going to happen to mess things up again. I don’t have a reason to think the first test was bad, but dealing with this stuff has made me so paranoid and unsure of myself. I think a big part of this stuff is done to collect fees and make some feel important. I’ve actually thought about just giving up and doing something else, but I don’t know how to be anything other than a nurse.