Hello, I have been a nurse for 3 years with previous experience in ICU, cath lab, and Interventional radiology. I started in ICU straight out of nursing school and I have been doing critical care since then. I currently work 4 days /10hr shifts each week. Our cath lab is extremely short staffed and I have been forced to take 15-20 days of call each month. This obviously increases your chance of being called in for emergencies. Our patients have been extremely sick, requiring more nursing care on a skeleton crew. We have also been having really late cases, so I typically work 10-14hr shifts. Needless to say, I am completely burned out. I have a newborn at home which requires all my attention as soon as I walk through the door. I am exhausted, tired, and frustrated. Now that I have my son, a lot of my nursing career priorities have changed. I want to go back to 3 days /12hr shifts. I would like to cut back on call or eliminate it completely. Back in July I accepted a day surgery position but my current director will not release me to this unit until September due to how short our cath lab unit is. I am having a hard time managing my current nursing career since I am being pulled into many directions. My team members are giving me a hard time for changing units, my director is also acting different now, and my home life is also requesting so much of my energy. I am feeling lost within my nursing career because I feel like I want to step back from emergency medicine and having to react quickly...solo. Recently, I have become so bitter and angry at work. I have never EVER been like this before. It makes me wonder if it is my environment within my unit (It has a lot of issues) or just burnout. I have applied for a few other jobs including surgery and an oncology unit. I really miss 1 on 1 nursing and educating patients. I love talking to patients and feeling like I make a difference. I also want to be home with my growing boy. I love my son so much and I’ve wasted a lot of time at work. I am stressed all the time -wondering if I am making the right decision. I feel guilty to step away from critical care since I’ve done it my whole career. Is anyone else experiencing this or have experienced a clash between home life and nursing career?