Messedup101

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1. Secondary PTSD spread the word PLEASE!!!

   Messedup101 replied to Messedup101's topic in General Nursing

   I wanted to give a small update. I was posting at the same time I was being questioned for 8 hours a day by lawyers about this. I would come home shaking and not only be unable to type correctly, useful thinking was impaired. This included my ability...

2. Secondary PTSD spread the word PLEASE!!!

   Messedup101 replied to Messedup101's topic in General Nursing

   So I wasn't going to say this. But I'm going to. When you say I'm sorry you're stressed out I already know you don't understand. It's not stress. I'm going to sum it up and try not to answer any more because I've learned a lot from your responses pro...

3. Secondary PTSD spread the word PLEASE!!!

   Messedup101 replied to Messedup101's topic in General Nursing

   Please look at the cause not the result on a small part very common to the disease. The reason, pain so intense that it never stops and you dont think it ever well. An hour seesm lie a huge break. If I were on fore and no way to piut it out, would yo...

4. Secondary PTSD spread the word PLEASE!!!

   Messedup101 replied to Messedup101's topic in General Nursing

   Yes, but do benzodiazepines have any less effect. I was told to take those This never stops, I dont think people understand that. In my department you don't ask for help. I was in an investigation foe weeks. I followed doctors orders and medicaid gui...

5. Secondary PTSD spread the word PLEASE!!!

   Messedup101 replied to Messedup101's topic in General Nursing

   In should add., I documented everything. I had enough proof, that the Attorney General after my psych eval and with the unimpaired level, Removed substance abuse and alcohol from the complaint. I think I was the first ever he said. It only list menta...

6. Secondary PTSD spread the word PLEASE!!!

   Messedup101 replied to Messedup101's topic in General Nursing

   Yes, now I know I can fix post for very long. I will be making fewer posts. I need a real computer, I will abbreviate it, I had way too many emotions the forst time. 6 years of hell and it is evidently well know outside of nursing, that we get this. ...

7. Secondary PTSD spread the word PLEASE!!!

   Messedup101 replied to Messedup101's topic in General Nursing

   I sat down and it is 3 hours later. It seems the window to to edit in this forum is short. I will endeavor to make sure the posts are better written. I cant entirely regulate my sleep, but I will wait longer to post. I now work many more hours for f...

8. Secondary PTSD spread the word PLEASE!!!

   Messedup101 replied to Messedup101's topic in General Nursing

   NO, I am bored and bread American. I need to clean it up. You are seeing one of the effects of the PTSD. I DONT SLEEP... it has been over a week since more than an hour or two. . I only drank for 3 weeks and only at the early morning terror. time.a...

9. Secondary PTSD spread the word PLEASE!!!

   Messedup101 replied to Messedup101's topic in General Nursing

   Oh in the diversion, the psychiatrist told them I was in no way an alcoholic. I have hundreds of witnesses over decades. No one has ever seen me with alcohol or intoxicated. On the disciplinary report, that everyone can see online, Alcohol is not eve...

10. Secondary PTSD spread the word PLEASE!!!

    Messedup101 replied to Messedup101's topic in General Nursing

    Yes, there was so much going on, and I was like the ball, just like a pinball machine. I will ret to clean it up tonight. It became bad, because it went on for years. I am still and will always be messed up. I have complete dissociation with the hap...

11. Secondary PTSD spread the word PLEASE!!!

    Messedup101 replied to Messedup101's topic in General Nursing

    Knowing what it is has been the single greatest relief I have had. . It has give me some purpose too. I am mad I mean really mad. My employer was the biggest in the country it had the resources and I'm sure it knew what was going on. I want other t...

12. Secondary PTSD spread the word PLEASE!!!

    Messedup101 posted a topic in General Nursing

    I was a great nurse. With more than 2 decades under my belt, almost all in hospice. The rest ICU, ER and oncology.. I never had heard of this. It affected me over several years, I went from being the best nurse there, to someone trying to make it thr...

13. Where can probation RN get Job

    Messedup101 replied to Messedup101's topic in California

    I surrendered it. When you petition to get it back. Probation is almost automatic. So, I will be on probation. I know I need a sympathetic employer. However, some employers are known for working with nurses on probation, that is what I am trying to f...

14. Where can probation RN get Job

    Messedup101 posted a topic in California

    As my name states I messed up. I was an RN 25 years. 18 years in Hospice. I also have PTSD. I never really found a treatment that helped much. However, helping people distracted me and felt good. This last time I started downhill, my wife was told s...