Sincera2020

I'm on my second semester and I feel like I'm not going to make it. I'm taking three online classes aside from the nursing program because I wasnt able to do those classes before getting in the program. I haven't failed any test so far, but I always feel like the dumb one in the group. I'm always the one who is struggling to understand the subject, the one who doesn't remember things. during our clinical pre meetings and post meetings I'm always the one that doesn't make sense and the instructor has to keep asking me questions to clarify what I'm saying. I don't spend any time with my kids, I hardly work and my house is always disgusting. I isolated myself from my family and my friends because they're always asking me for favors and I can no longer help them out and I hate to say no, so I just decided to just keep my distance. They dont help me and they think I'm always being dramatic. My in laws are terrible people, they have said to me that I'm not nurse material and that I'm not going to make it. I honestly feel so lonely. I notice that I no longer have patience for my kids and I have no motivation to do anything. I'm very depress. I have gained about 30 pds from the first semester to now. I've never seen myself this fat.