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wideyedfreedom ADN, LPN, RN

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wideyedfreedom has 3 years experience as a ADN, LPN, RN.

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  1. wideyedfreedom

    Quitting first RN job

    I guess the reason why it “freaks” me out is because these patients are so so sick and it’s just the constant feeling of wondering if I am making them worse. Or maybe I am missing something and I don’t even know that I am. I talk to nurses who are working the same amount of time as me in other units and they seem to be thriving or so they say. Super confident and ready to progress onto other units. Some are charges of their units. Where I feel like I have barely touched the surface of what I need to know and be confident with. I could never be charge of my unit. No way.
  2. wideyedfreedom

    Quitting first RN job

    Thank you for the response. And I know, it’s been a tough decision for me.
  3. wideyedfreedom

    Quitting first RN job

    1 - I wouldn’t say my assignments are unsafe. I am never tripled thankfully because charges knows I am new, but sometimes up to 7-8 nurses will be tripled on the unit if we are very short. Lots of the nurses are new as well (less than 1 -2years of ICU ex). But there have been times when I am given a very very sick patient with something new I’ve never experienced like a patient with multiple sheaths and ECKOs machine that needs to be set up from IR (for example). In this instance I try my best to look up in our protocols, ask my charge, and the most experienced nurse near me to help. But if we are short staffed getting the help I need can be difficult with our charge nurse being pulled in 20 different directions and other nurses busy. 2. I’ve talked to my manager about issues I’ve had, they say I am a good nurse and they have no complaints about my work. My charges say I do a good job. My managers have told me everything I am feeling is normal. But it doesn’t change the fact that this feeling is making me miserable. 3. Besides only getting 6 weeks of training when I was told I would get more when I started. And it being difficult to request PTO and get it approved - nothing like that. thanks for the response
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    Quitting first RN job

    I’m taking two weeks off now, but my anxiety about going back is just unreal. I really want to stick out the two years, but mentally I’m not sure if I can. My main concern is ruining future opportunities or having difficultly getting another job if I leave now.
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    Quitting first RN job

    Hi, I am an RN who will have 1 year of experience come August in the ICU. I was an LPN for 3 years before working as an RN. I did my clinicals in ICU and thought it was going to be the place for me. My clinicals and practicum were in a smaller medical ICU, which now looking back is much different than where I work now. I work in a mixed Trauma, medical/surgical, and Neuro ICU with 40 beds. We also had a COVID ICU which I worked as well. I don’t hate the ICU, I love the learning and providing care to the ICU patient. I hate the stress, the anxiety, and the drama. My stress and anxiety is getting to the point where I dread going to work. I am constantly second guessing myself and my judgement. I hate when a patient has poor outcomes after my three days and constantly wondering if it’s something I did or didn’t do. My prior experience was working in a rehab for a year and a half and home health for a year and a half as an LPN. I really didn’t enjoy rehab, I didn’t mind home health and now looking back - I miss it. I miss being able to educate patients who were responsive and relationships I had with patients and families. I’ve been looking at other positions now that I’m coming to my 1 year mark- such as utilization review, case management for home health/hospice. I’m scared to quit and move on. ICU was my dream and I thought it was going to be my dream job. There are still parts of it that I really love and I feel like I am going to throw the opportunity away. Everyone says 1 year - it will be easier. But here I am at 1 year and I feel dumber than ever. it’s like the more I work and the more I learn the more I realize what I don’t know and it terrifies me. It stresses me out and makes my anxiety worse. I am in a two year new grad contract as well, so I will be breaking my contract and not sure if this hospital system would ever hire me back. I talked to my managers about going PRN and they said absolutely not, said I need to work on my mental health. I also worry that they wouldn’t give me a good reference either if I quit. We are always so short staffed and people are constantly coming and going on the unit. I also feel like I’ve jumped around a lot since becoming a nurse and I don’t want to look like a job hopper. Sometimes I wonder if nursing is even for me and I should do something else. The anxiety is driving me through the roof. I don’t know whether to stick it out longer or to jump ship. I just hope whatever I do, I really love and can stay for years. Any advice would be helpful.. thanks
  6. wideyedfreedom

    IRSC RN Fall 2018 Applicants !

    Accepted ! Congrats to everyone who got in.. also did you see the letter says first meeting is June 5th but it also mentions June 4th as the first meeting? Might need to call to clarify that.. but congrats again!
  7. wideyedfreedom

    IRSC RN Fall 2018 Applicants !

    Hopefully everyone will get in! Ive read past forums and I also know several previous IRSC RN students and I know people who got in with scores in the 155 range so it really just depends on the pool of applicants the time you apply, I applied in 2016 with a 3.4 GPA and 156 score and didn't get in or even an alternate spot but when I applied then, many people must have scored really high. Also, the first time i took the NLN I got a 121 - I had no idea what to expect going into it and I barely studied for it, this time I gave myself 4 weeks, studied 5 days/ week, I went through the entire red book, bought the NLN PAX app, did the entire app, made vocabulary flash cards and if there was a topic i did not understand I looked it up on youtube and cliff notes to broaden my knowledge on it... I also bought the practice exams on the NLN website and did all of those, many questions I had were repeats.. I was really surprised when I saw my score because the test was still extremely challenging with all the studying I did. But good luck to everyone, hopefully any day now we will get the letters - keep checking your student email.
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    IRSC RN Fall 2018 Applicants !

    Wow so many replies ! I have been busy haven't had a chance to come online...
  9. wideyedfreedom

    IRSC RN Fall 2018 Applicants !

    Hello, This will be my second time applying for IRSC's RN program, first time around I had a total of 156 points and did not get accepted. This time my total is 184, I am feeling good about my score but I am still nervous until I get that acceptance letter!! I am really hoping I get in. Just wanting to see who's applying!