Hey how's it going everybody. I don't know why lately I'm been feeling very irritable lately. My whole body feels numb and I should be happy. I just passed NCLEX-RN, I'm a brand new nurse...but for some reason I still feel completely empty and I'm thinking this is what is making me feel irritable.
I guess it's also that lately many of your friends that you were once close to barely even give you a call anymore like you don't exist.
I'm also upset at the fact that as much as people are being nice, I know I gained like 40 lbs during nursing school, and they don't tell me the truth.
Girls are finding me less attractive and I know it's due to my current weight. I'm overweight, but have the best personality anyone could have. Why do woman have to be superficial with men that don't meet their physical expectations.
It's not the outside that matters, but the inside.
Bolonga!
I'm down.
Doesn't anyone have a sincere heart these days?
The only thing I have at this point is my family, my career, and God.
I just don't know why I'm overwhelmed with numbness and irritability.
I felt the same way after nursing school. The stress of nursing school prompted my classmates and I to bond, work together, and became great friends in the face of adversity! After graduation, we scattered all over, and I felt a great sense of loss. The cathartic sessions in the cafeteria laughing about our clinicals and our competence or lack thereof was gone, there wasn't anybody to lean on.
It's almost like post-traumatic stress disorder!
You will feel better, and adjust. Best of luck to you.
Oldiebutgoodie
PS I lost weight as soon as I started working, because of the running around!
it sounds like you are more burnt out/exhausted, more than anything else.
there is nothing that quite compares to this feeling, when nsg school and nclex are complete.
i had to take a month off after finishing everything, before i even started feeling energetic enough to start working.
i would suggest that you take some "me time" for 1-2 wks.
once you feel somewhat rested, start any form of exercise.
get the old adrenalin pumping.
you have a lot going for you.
you just need to attain a level of wellness, where you can appreciate it, and move forward.
here's to new beginnings. :balloons:
leslie
Seriously!! Here IS to new beginnings.
I've been so caught up about what has happened throughout my years in nursing school that I keep dwelling on the past.
I realize sometimes that hypocrisy hits me up the yahoo because I tend to give positive advice to others yet I don't follow my own advice!
It's a bad habit, you know, you talk the talk, but don't walk the talk?
It's really all about looking deep within your soul and coming to grips with reality and in asking yourself, "WHAT DO YOU WANT?"
Will this make you happy once you have it?
I just want to be able to know that everything I strive for and achieve had purpose in it and that there were no regrets. I am totally in CARPE DIEM mode after reading so many replies to my first post.
"Our thoughts are powerful...It's all in your mind."
If you start the day off thinking negative, the rest of your day will become influenced by your negativity and it will just be a bad day for you...UNLESS you turn that negative attitude around (taking a 180 degree turn) and create a positive attitude, then your day will become positive.
LIKE ATTRACTS LIKE!
I always thought that if I am a person who is down and negative...people don't want to share that energy, so I have to create positive energy. Then I think to myself, am I being "fake" or "plastic" when I try to make this change? Of course not! It's about starting to live your life in an optimistic way and in trying to create this pattern of positivity so that life will have me content or rather grateful for what I have...
I totally believe in the old adage that "TO FAIL IS TO SUCCEED."
When I look back on my life, there were many failed life experiences in my life. Failure at past relationships, failure on taking up once in a lifetime opportunities due to fear, etc. But regardless, down the line of my life, I gained courage and understanding that I deserve better things...that Sky's the Limit with my life. It's all in my mind. I can do anything I set my mind to. Be like NIKE and "JUST DO IT".
And you know, I think that numbness/irritability feeling I am having is probably not having enough "ME TIME"! I'm always looking to please others first then myself! This must change, but in a non-arrogant, non-selfish kind of way!
Whew...quite an epiphany huh? I just want to be able to know that I'm living my life to the fullest and that I am do everything in my power to complete who I am as a person.
I am a graduate of the school of hard knocks as well. Every failure in my life has lead to lessons learned and strength gained.
Sounds like you just needed to get it out in the open, vent a little bit, take a look at it and realize you're being negative and down in the dumps, and now you're moving forward.
I agree too that we can turn our days around, start over, and make it a positive day.
oldiebutgoodie, RN
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I felt the same way after nursing school. The stress of nursing school prompted my classmates and I to bond, work together, and became great friends in the face of adversity! After graduation, we scattered all over, and I felt a great sense of loss. The cathartic sessions in the cafeteria laughing about our clinicals and our competence or lack thereof was gone, there wasn't anybody to lean on.
It's almost like post-traumatic stress disorder!
You will feel better, and adjust. Best of luck to you.
Oldiebutgoodie
PS I lost weight as soon as I started working, because of the running around!