How conflicted you must feel. If you were doing better in patho would that make a difference in your thinking about going into nursing? I guess I just didn't understand if you are saying that you are giving up on the nursing because of the patho, or that you've giving up on the nursing completely. I know it's kind of late in the semester for patho, but I will tell you that the way to organize your study of patho is to (1) learn the anatomy of the organ/system involved, (2) learn the normal physiology of the organ/system involved (3) then, the trick to learning the pathology in an organ or organ system is by what has gone wrong/what is no longer normal. All those things are interconnected. The treatments should make sense since what the doctors are trying to do is bring the organ back into some kind of normalcy, if not cure the problem. Also, you need to ask yourself the "why" questions. Why is this treatment done for this disease? Why is this medication given, rather than some other medication? That is a very important part of the learning process with this course. The other thing about learning is that it, generally, has to be repetitious. You won't learn this stuff in one sitting. The more you read about diseases, the more you will retain and remember. Also, reading about them from different sources is a big, big help. It gives you alternative views and slants about the disease from the opinions and thoughts of different authors. So, I am giving you two web links.
here is a site by an instructor of A&P which has lots of links to Internet sites. This instructor wants his students to understand the normal workings of the body systems.
- this is a link to an online family physician advisor that is divided into all the various medical specialties. You link into the specialties at the left side of the page. There will then be links to all kinds of resources related to many disease conditions within that particular body system. While this is designed for physicians, there is a good deal of information here that nurses can understand as well.
Please use them. If you are reading up on diabetes, don't just look at what your textbook has to say. Go to the ADA (American Diabeties Association) site and look up the information they have for the public on being a newly diagnosed diabetic. Go to the website of the insulin producer and see if they have a web page set up for patients with all kinds of information on diabetes for them. This is how you will learn this stuff. In other words, immerse yourself in the information available. And while you're reading this stuff get your brain answering those why questions, "so this is why they order this."
Lastly, if you decided not to go ahead with nursing, your education up to this point is not wasted. There are still many health related careers that you can get into. I, myself, have been working toward getting a degree in health information management (used to be called medical records) because I can't do the standing for long hours as a clinical nurse anymore. Talk with a counselor at your school. Have you thought about dental hygiene or radiology technology? There are so many other heathcare and healthcare related professions. You already have many of the required courses for these other fields already.