actually, lilshamrock, i understand your feelings and your frustration, but i'm seeing something a little differently than you. i think your fellow students are going to be looking up to you for these reasons. first of all, you had the courage to be the first to step forward to be tested. i'm sure you're not going to hear people saying you were stupid to do that. they're more likely admiring you for your determination, so don't sell yourself short. sounds like you have "potential leader" written all over you. secondly, you learned a valuable lesson. you can be doing a procedure wrong and not know it. so, early on with subsequent procedures, grab an instructor and ask them to evaluate you informally as you go through a procedure and tell you if you are doing it correctly.
now, here's my story about failing procedure check-offs and feeling bummed and ready to quit before starting. my story starts when i was already an rn for 8 years--8 years, kiddo! to get into the bsn program at the university i was applying to, you had to "earn" the lower division nursing credits by passing a competency exam that the university nursing professors had put together. there were two components: a written test (no problem there) and a test of 4 clinical skills. i flew through the skills we were asked to demonstrate until i got to the simplest one of all: turning and repositioning a patient in the bed. as i was doing it, i was thinking, "this is easy", since i worked on a stepdown unit where we had comatose patients we turned and repositioned all the time. i was failed! i was devastated! talk about a nose-dive in self-esteem! i wanted to quit right then and there. i was told that i would be given only one more chance to do just that particular skill and pass it and the date for the next testing. embarrassed? to say the least! after a lot of crying and anger i decided to at least give the re-test a try to say i did all i could to get into this bsn program. when i got to the retesting, it turned out there were what turned into 2/3rds of what was to become my class who had also been failed at the same skill! the problem, and i've written about it before on the forums, was the professor who had been grading us. she was, and still is because she's now tenured in, a real headache for the nursing department and a screwball, a wing nut. anyway, there was a different professor grading us, we all passed, went on to our bsn classes and graduated. happy ending.
the point: school is stressful. some instructors are jerks and shouldn't be instructors. you just have to endure them to get to your goal. do damage control as best you can to stay afloat. you only have to put up with them for a couple of years and then you'll never see them again--a small price to pay for a satisfying career. don't give up now. if you do, you'll miss all the good stuff that you've been waiting for.