New Nurse, feeling depressed

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I have been working as a nurse since July of this year. I work on an oncology floor on the night shift. Lately, I have been falling into depression. I sleep all the time, I never want to do anything, and I haven't been putting any effort into anything. I cry on the way to work and I dread going into work even on my days off. I do admit that my heart is set on working in pediatrics and I just took this job because it was the only job that would hire me as a new grad at the time. I am just wondering if what I am feeling is normal for a new grad working nightshift. I have been there for 5 months now. I never know what I am doing and I feel like I am a burden for asking questions all the time. Does anyone have any advice for me?

Specializes in Critical Care; Cardiac; Professional Development.

Good job JB. Often that is the hardest part. I hope you feel much, much better very, very soon.

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I started out on an inpatient oncology unit, however I knew my heart was set with oncology patients. Still, with 1.5 years on night shift, my depression got worse, I couldn't sleep, my panic attacks were more regular and sick calls for mental health reasons were all to frequent for me.

I began to apply for my dream job - chemotherapy infusion - and can already tell a difference in my mindset when I go into work now. Working at a chemo clinic, I feel I have purpose, and my body feels better (or is starting to haha) which is helping my mental health.

I encourage you to go for your passion - apply, regardless of your experience with pediatrics at this time. I never thought I'd get a call back at a chemo clinic - now I work at one!

As for the questions: I have seen nurses who have been nurses for 20+ years ask ME questions and for feedback. The questions thing will never end, you're always gonna be learning. And you will find your groove and your flow eventually. Just make sure to take care of yourself outside of work. D vitamins, extra hydration on my days off, and getting out of my apartment to be with the day-walkers helped me get through nights (if only a little bit, it did help). Also, the gym has barely anyone there at noon, so if you are financially able, snag a gym membership and get your body moving. Makes a world of difference.

Sending lots of good vibes to you. Its not easy being a new nurse, and its not easy working night shift, let alone with a population you're not fully passionate about. You got this. We've all been there.

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Specializes in Nephrology, Cardiology, ER, ICU.

How are things going now? Any better? Hope you got some help to deal with this stress. Take care

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