I took a new job in a specialty I've always wanted. I've been working day shift in Adult ICU for years and just switched to NICU. I love the babies and am exciting to be there but 3rd shift is kicking my tail. I have a toddler who I feel like I never see when I work multiple days in a row. We have to work every other weekend which consists of Friday, Sat, Sun night. Those weekends I never see him. I just cried and cried when I woke up this afternoon because he was at his Papas and I know I won't see him until tomorrow.
I have a 45 minute commute and the drive home is soo hard. I try to sing, roll my windows down, chew gum, dance. It is brutal. I take 5mg ambien to sleep but still wake up every hour or so until about 1:30. I have black out curtains and a fan.
I have been on 3rd a month. Does it get easier? I have a constant headache. I have got to pull myself together here. Ugh talk about a whine fest