Hi everyone,I was hired at a nursing home full time which it took me forever to find this job. I had been looking for over 5 months and though I would've preferred a part time job since I'm in school I took the opportunity. Its better than having no job. I had 3 days orientation and felt confident I could handle it on my own. I always heard nursing homes were crazy busy but during orientation we had time to relax and watch tv with the residents or just waste time sitting down. I was surprised and thought "well this is a lot easier than what I imagined". Yesterday was my first day working alone having a section to myself. I was busy the entire time! I did not do a wonderful job as I thought I would and feel like a failure. I would take a very long time over 10 or 15 minutes just to change one person. For some reason during orientation I would go a little faster but now I don't. It took me forever to change everyone about 2 hrs for the 14 or so residents I had. I think 3 of them were able bodied so I didn't have to worry about them so much. I also forgot a resident in the dinning room, I just wanted to die! Thankfully I had other cnas helping me out, with out them i'd probably still be there until 1 or something. I feel so bad asking for help and having others do my job since I know they have their own residents to take care of. I feel bad that I'm so slow when it comes to changing and stuff. I didn't even do a shower since there was some confusion. I probably would've never finished if I had to do them. I do feel terrible and have no confidence in my skills anymore. I got out at 11:30pm while the next shift was asking y I was still there. Even the nurses who worked with me were telling me to go home and leave the garbage for the next shift. I didn't think that was fair though so ii tried finishing my job. When I got home I remembered I forgot to empty a foley so now I feel even worst. The nurses would check on me periodically and ask if I was ok and would tell me they worry about me. I was glad that they check up on me but it made me feel like the worst can in the world! I don't want anyone to worry about me The only thing I was happy about is that through all of the stress and rushing I was able to keep my cool in front of my residents and was kind and tried to talk to them while I was changing them or whatever. At least I feel I did my job of taking care of them even though I took forever doing it. I'm just so embarassed because usually I'm good at everything and fast. This has just completely lowered my confidence I guess this was more of a vent but I would like to get any advice or your experiences when you were a new cna . I hope I get quicker at it so I'm not so embarrased.