My own personal hell.

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Yesterday at exactly 7 weeks pregnant I found out I had suffered a miscarriage, if this was not enough my financial aid got suspended for too many credits, and I start OB-Peds tomorrow. I do not know how to get through this or if I should tell everyone or keep it to myself. My professor and fellow classmates know and they are willing to help me through this but it is so hard going from being so happy to feeling this kind of loss and emptiness. I just needed to share how I am feeling and do it anonymously for now and I appreciate any words of wisdom or kindness you wonderful nurses can share.

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Specializes in retired LTC.

((HUGS)) for you.

If your school has a student counseling program, you might check them out for some professional support. Also check in with your school's financial aid dept for any recommendations.

If you & your family are close, they may be your strongest support system, but only you will know that.

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Specializes in Peds, School Nurse, clinical instructor.

I am very sorry for your loss. You will get through this with the help of family and friends. I agree to check with your school for a counseling center and also with your financial aid dept. Stay strong!

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Specializes in M/S, LTC, Corrections, PDN & drug rehab.

I have nothing else to add but just want to say how sorry I am.

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I, too, lost a baby at 7 weeks. It was horrible emotionally. It took a long time, but you are going to need some support. I threw myself into my studies, even though I didn't want to. 8 months later I was preggers again and now have a wonderful little boy. I pray for comfort for you. You will get through this, even though you may not feel it now. Hugs!!

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I lost baby at 11 weeks:-(There was no support at home.My husband blamed me .It was my 3rd semester.As a result I just couldn't make it.After this my mother in law started to blame me for being kicked out from the program.It was my personal hell and I feel your pain:-(

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Specializes in PACU, pre/postoperative, ortho.

So sorry for your loss. I had a miscarriage at 12 wks; lowest point of my life for quite some time & though I had a lot of support, it felt like no one could possibly understand. (((hugs)))

Regarding financial aid, I too would get a letter every semester in nursing school stating I had too many credits (I had a prior associate in a different field). However, I just had to appeal each time (nothing more than signing a paper) & was reinstated each time. Look into it; you may get funds back.

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I am so sorry for your loss. It will get better with time. Give yourself time to grieve and seek out support. You don't have to go through this alone.

MissyRN

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Thank you all for all of your advice and kind words regarding my miscarriage. I still feel sad and I am experiencing anxiety attacks in some situations but I am in an accelerated summer course for OB-Peds and the OB portion only has one week left. I have a very supportive clinical instructor so I have been very fortunate as to not ne forced into a situation I can not handle yet. My husband and daughter have been amazing and with time I will get through this. On a better note my appeal for financial aid went through and my little girl loves her new daycare. 4 more weeks and I am done with Summer A, I feel like this year is testing me to make sure I can handle everything. Thank you again everyone.

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