Well my manager and I finally had the big talk. I told her that I was not happy on my unit. Med/surg is too much for me. I graduated school last December. I knew Med/surg was not right for me even then..but I took the job because I had no experience and my mother knew the DON. I cannot handle the stress of having as many as 7-8 patients a day, with admits and discharges. I was fine working in ICU with a preceptor with 1-2 patients that were on a normal schedule.
But I've been working for three months now. I just can't seem to get a pace set down and my own rhythm going. Orientation is horrid, I was on it for 5 weeks, got to work on my own for 2 months then they decided after I had a panic attack on nights to do orientation on day shift. I've not been trying to get back on my own for three weeks now and they still don't feel I'm ready due to my pacing and organization.
The issue is now I need to start looking for another job asap. I need to keep working there until I do find something.
Is this just going to be a problem on any unit? Is there somewhere I can go where pacing is more even and I can actually collect my thoughts?
