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I am in a bit of a situation and need some advice! I'll try to explain it as coherently as possible...(so sorry for the length)
I'm a new grad nurse working in a NICU. I'm blessed in that this is exactly where I wanted to be. The hospital that I am at is a very reputable one- extremely sound system, takes care of their employees, rated as a top health system for it's category. I've moved back home, and though it was an adjustment at first, I've settled in and am content. I love being with my family and it is going to help immensely with paying off loans. However, it was not my #1 choice institution but was the hospital that offered me a job before I got my license...while my 1st choice had no contact with me until after I passed NCLEX. Since I hadn't heard anything from choice #1 (and didn't think I would), I accepted the offer and have been there for about 5 weeks now.
Well, as you probably guessed, choice #1 contacted me for an interview after they could verify my license. I went, just to explore my options. The position is in a NICU as well. The interview went great. It is the largest and most prestigious institution in my state, ranked very high in the nation. The manager said that if I were serious about coming to them (I was honest and told her that I had accepted another job already, which she GREATLY appreciated the honesty...), she would extend an offer to me.
So now I'm unsure of what to do. I realize that I am EXTREMELY blessed in this; please don't think me ungrateful. I was truly not looking for such a situation. I am struggling with the decision to make- to stay where I am, already comfortable and in a "good" position, or to go back to this institution (I had clinicals here- it's in my college town), move back to my college town (which seems odd since I am no longer a college student), accept the added expenses, take longer to pay off loans...
My greatest concern is that if I leave the hospital that I am at right now for another institution, they will mark me as ineligible for rehire and I would never have the opportunity to work for them again. This is scary because 1. they are in my hometown, and 2. they basically control my whole side of the state. I have NOTHING against them....no reason to leave, other than a possibly better job experience. Has anyone had a similar situation? Is it unethical to leave? I also am not on contract...I actually have a 6 month introductory period in which they said I am allowed to leave at any time (or get let go haha). I know that they have already invested in me though and I wonder that even though I am technically allowed to leave, if that comes with some major hard feelings against me.
Another thing, I want to be a neonatal nurse practitioner...and I feel that #1 choice hospital will offer me the best opportunities to learn and prepare me for such a role (as they are the last stop hospital of our state).
I also could wait it out a year and try for hospital #1 again. But life can change so fast that I hesitate to pass over this opportunity so quickly and bank on a future I don't know that I have...
Any advice would be helpful. Actually, ANYTHING would be helpful. My pro's and con's list, family input (who of course want me home haha) and friends input (who of course want me back in the college town haha) just aren't cutting it...
Thanks in advance everyone :)