Hello, everyone. I have just begun my second semester of nursing school. Aside from the stress and overwhelm felt due to the schooling itself, my bigger stress comes from a worry that I am not on the right path. To be honest, I never wanted to be a nurse; it was never my passion. I was a psych major who became fascinated with biological sciences, became a TA for Anatomy & Physiology, and got pressured into nursing school. I was more interested in therapy, education, and research within biobehavioral health, but so many people influenced me into nursing. "It is steady, it pays, there are opportunities," is what caught me. (I have spent a decade of my life struggling to put food on the table, even working two jobs, so please understand why stability became important.) The problem is, that while I am very fascinated by learning pathophysiology and educating others about it, I do not enjoy the nurses role in clinical. I do not enjoy performing the skills, the stressful environment, the documenting, the poisonous and belittling attitudes of other nurses(eat their young) and doctors; nursing has made me feel very depressed. I don't really want to be a nurse. The only thing that has kept me is the prospect of perhaps becoming a psychiatric nurse practitioner, but it seems ages away. Is it worth going through the next two years to complete by BSN if I don't enjoy this? Does a psychiatric NP get to do much counseling and therapy and educating? Have much autonomy? Or is it mostly medication management. Please help. I cannot afford to waste any more money. I don't want to live a life of stress and exhaustion when this is what I wanted to teach others how to maintain ?
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Hello, everyone. I have just begun my second semester of nursing school. Aside from the stress and overwhelm felt due to the schooling itself, my bigger stress comes from a worry that I am not on the right path. To be honest, I never wanted to be a nurse; it was never my passion. I was a psych major who became fascinated with biological sciences, became a TA for Anatomy & Physiology, and got pressured into nursing school. I was more interested in therapy, education, and research within biobehavioral health, but so many people influenced me into nursing. "It is steady, it pays, there are opportunities," is what caught me. (I have spent a decade of my life struggling to put food on the table, even working two jobs, so please understand why stability became important.) The problem is, that while I am very fascinated by learning pathophysiology and educating others about it, I do not enjoy the nurses role in clinical. I do not enjoy performing the skills, the stressful environment, the documenting, the poisonous and belittling attitudes of other nurses(eat their young) and doctors; nursing has made me feel very depressed. I don't really want to be a nurse. The only thing that has kept me is the prospect of perhaps becoming a psychiatric nurse practitioner, but it seems ages away. Is it worth going through the next two years to complete by BSN if I don't enjoy this? Does a psychiatric NP get to do much counseling and therapy and educating? Have much autonomy? Or is it mostly medication management. Please help. I cannot afford to waste any more money. I don't want to live a life of stress and exhaustion when this is what I wanted to teach others how to maintain ?