Hey guys, I am in 3rd semster NS with 4 weeks left to go. In these next 4 weeks I have 6 exams, a group presentation, one paper, a professional article review, a clinical assessment tool and CP, a process recording for mental health, plus TONS of clinical paperwork.
My grades are good and I am doing well in clinical but I just don't think I can take it anymore. The stress is getting to me and I just want to crawl in a hole and cry.
I dunno how I am going to make it.
My relationships with family are suffering, my emotions are on edge, and I have very little patience left. I find myself saying negative things, and having a negative attitude when I am alone which is very much not like the true me. I just feel like I am falling apart inside.
Hi - I could have written that one myself - we are in the same stage 3rd semester 5 weeks left & the stress is on. There are friends dropping (flunking) out everywhere I look, others who are getting an attitude, others just struggling to survive. It can get so depressing. I think we are all gettin burnt out.
Make my first med error & was horrified today. At the hospital we are at for clinicals, techs take the blood sugars & put it on the computer -- well I had 2 pts that were both diabetic & wrote the wrong BS down (reversed them). Luckily my clinical instructor caught it BEFORE it was given -- i almost gave 2 units of novolog to a pt with a 76 sugar. I have gone thru shock, embarrassment, anger (at myself for not double checking the accuchek results) and just fear.
So I'm getting written up for the med error (which I totally deserve) - luckily I'm not getting kicked out but put on remediation (which mean another med error & i am done). I am now terrified about meds. Just a reminder I had the 5 rights x3 -- but the wrong input (test result). Just want to help someone else NOT do this!
So when will I not feel this bad? I broke down in tears (privately) for awhile...just so many emotions on top of 3rd semester stress.
Thanks for listening and letting me lower my stress level:cry:
Today was the worst Clinical day of my life. I was taken aside by my instructor and told that I was doing poorly in clinical. This hit me like a ton of bricks. I had NO inclination that I was doing poorly. My midterm evaluation was all labeled -->"GOOD", I had never been "spoken to". My instructor wouldn't tell me what I was doing wrong, only that, if I didn't get it now.... meaning her telling me won't make me "get it" either. Geez! I'm still a student, and need some instructing! I still tear up thinking about it, and I am NOT a cryer but I haven't cried as much as I did today since my Grandmother passed away. This devestated me, and I am now questioning the legitimacy of it all. TODAY was the first day I considered leaving the program...and I'm graduating in about 8 months!
In my final year mys husband was in respite for 6 weeks while I did my final prac. he had a terminal illness. Prac was roughly and hour from home and sometimes I could stay over in nurses quarters which was a great relief and saving on petrol. Sometimes if I needed to I'd go to a movie or walk in a park, go to an art gallery. Even when I finished studying at night after prac I had to read just to unwind. I chose the trashiest book I could find..something about sex and cowboys..very graphic and unlike what I normally read. Do yourself a favour, an ice cream or bought coffee after a harrowing day can help. All the best.
Not saying you need it but I was feeling the same way and my doc just put me on Zoloft. I told many of my classmates and a lot of them admitted to recently starting antidepressants as well. I was initially surprised but when you think of all the stress we're under as students, it does make sense! I hope things get better for you soon.
I second FuturoEnfermera's note about the SSRI. I don't think that I would have made it this far without my fluoxetine. I started taking it during my first semester in the program, and it has really been helpful for me and my anxiety.
The best piece of advice I got before NS was.....DO WHAT'S NEXT.
Seriously, this got me and my friend through NS. When we had a ton of stuff like you're talking about, we just focused on what was due next. As with anything else, if you just focus on the small pieces, then it won't seem as overwhelming.
I'm with you on the stress. I'm graduating in June and I can't take it anymore. Throughout the whole program I saw that others were stressed out but I never was. Now at the very end I'm struggling. Many things have gone wrong in my personal life in the last 4 weeks and the fact that I'm going to nursing school full time and taking another class at a different university and trying to work is all crumbling down on me now.
I took this weekend off work and am trying to relax. I slept all day yesterday and watched a movie and today I'm going to get back with the program and study.
I just started on celexa (which we all know can take 3-4 weeks to work) hopefully it will help. Also have lorazepam (thank god). Thanks for the advice!! I don't feel quite as crazy now :)
julstexas
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Hi - I could have written that one myself - we are in the same stage 3rd semester 5 weeks left & the stress is on. There are friends dropping (flunking) out everywhere I look, others who are getting an attitude, others just struggling to survive. It can get so depressing. I think we are all gettin burnt out.
Make my first med error & was horrified today. At the hospital we are at for clinicals, techs take the blood sugars & put it on the computer -- well I had 2 pts that were both diabetic & wrote the wrong BS down (reversed them). Luckily my clinical instructor caught it BEFORE it was given -- i almost gave 2 units of novolog to a pt with a 76 sugar. I have gone thru shock, embarrassment, anger (at myself for not double checking the accuchek results) and just fear.
So I'm getting written up for the med error (which I totally deserve) - luckily I'm not getting kicked out but put on remediation (which mean another med error & i am done). I am now terrified about meds. Just a reminder I had the 5 rights x3 -- but the wrong input (test result). Just want to help someone else NOT do this!
So when will I not feel this bad? I broke down in tears (privately) for awhile...just so many emotions on top of 3rd semester stress.
Thanks for listening and letting me lower my stress level:cry: