I hate my new grad nurse residency program HELP

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Hello,

I graduated dec and got accepted into the new grad nurse residency program and I HATE MY JOB. I am on medsurg and I've always wanted to be in the ED, but they don't hire new grads through this program in the ED. I cry everyday before I go and when I get home and on my off days because I am that miserable. I signed a 2 year contract, but I CANNOT stay for that long. I've been there for 2 months and it isn't getting any better. My preceptor and I don't click and I feel as if I'm a burden to her when I ask questions.. I haven't made any friends on the unit and I am a very outgoing person. I moved to a new state to take this job and don't know anyone or have any friends here. I am struggling and would love some insight. I have always loved nursing throughout school and clinicals, but I feel as if I have chosen the wrong career path. How do I get out of this 2 year contract? Is it bad to break the contract? I don't care about paying back the money I would go into debt thats how miserable I am.

I truly hope you are reading the above advice because they know.... I myself am a new nurse, but I am older and have had quite a few new jobs in my former life. I promise, I have felt the same and it can be tough. But you say that all through school and clinicals you loved it. Please give it time. I doubt you find too many new nurses that have not felt the way you do, and then add on moving away from home. I'm sure it is a huge struggle. But you are stronger than you think, look how far you have already come I can also relate to not making friends right away, I am an extremely friendly person but have one of those faces that does not always show how cordial I am.. I think there are acronyms that are popular right now RBF (not to say that is you, but it is definitely me - lol) and I learned a long time ago that a smile can get you further than you realize. I know it sounds very simple, but try reaching out just a little bit to some of your other nurses - any of them - just smile and maybe in the break room ask how their day is going. You are among the angels of the most respected profession - they have all been there. Sometimes we can be so deep in our sadness or be overwhelmed that we forget that we are never alone. I have also been trained by people I did not get alone with, this is no fun for sure. If you need to go to the manager, do that. If that's not something you feel you can do just yet, then as said before - take everything you can from this and know that one day you will be giving someone advice on how to get through some of their toughest times. Good luck - you are worthy of happiness, but it might need to start with you reaching out.

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Thank you all for the wonderful advice. I am still working at this unit, but have decided to break the contact. I landed a job in my hometown in the ED and am very excited about it. When I typed the post I was very unhappy.

The reason I don't care for the unit... People that have worked there talk about how awful it is, therefore I ask myself, if these people aren't happy here and have been here for 2 years will I ever be happy here?

Also, I know working in a mainly female profession, there is going to be drama.. However, this is a bit aggressive. Once a nurse walks into the room from the nurses station, the other nurses immediately start talking about the nurse that just left the nursing station.

Lastly, the cohort before me, the 2 new grads that were hired - broke the contract as well. The retention for this unit is just not good.

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Thank you all for the wonderful advice. I am still working at this unit, but have decided to break the contact. I landed a job in my hometown in the ED and am very excited about it. When I typed the post I was very unhappy.

The reason I don't care for the unit... People that have worked there talk about how awful it is, therefore I ask myself, if these people aren't happy here and have been here for 2 years will I ever be happy here?

Also, I know working in a mainly female profession, there is going to be drama.. However, this is a bit aggressive. Once a nurse walks into the room from the nurses station, the other nurses immediately start talking about the nurse that just left the nursing station.

Lastly, the cohort before me, the 2 new grads that were hired - broke the contract as well. The retention for this unit is just not good.

I feel for you. It really pays to thoroughly research a position before accepting an offer. I usually use glassdoor.com or ask around. Patient reviews on yelp are also a good way to gauge the culture of a hospital.

Make sure you put some time to research this new position and do your due diligence this time around.

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Glad to hear that you found something else!

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