I can't find my happiness in nursing.

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Specializes in Oncology, NICU.

Hello all. 
 

I have been a nurse 2 years. I started in adult oncology and learned a lot in my time that I worked there. I gave chemo, worked with surgical oncology patients, precepted new nurses, gave a lot of transfusions, and saw many sad and intense situations.
 

I became confident and met plenty of friends there. I miss that hospital and wish I hadn't left sometimes.. 

after 2 years, I had an interest in critical care nursing and was a bit burned out from oncology.. so I thought it would be good to try something new. I'm young and child free so why not?

I was rejected by a couple of adult ICU's, but eventually I was offered a NICU level 3 position. I thought it came to me for a reason. I was happy to get the job!  

Fast forward, I have been working in a NICU for the past 6 months. THE BABIES ARE ADORABLE, AND I SEE A LOT OF BEAUTIFUL MOMENTS here..

But, I don't feel that the NICU is for me. 

I had a really horrible preceptor who bullied me and told me I didn't look like a NICU nurse, and an educator who made me feel like an idiot. my floor also feels cliquey and some people have treated me different because I came from an adult floor. I don't have any friends. 

I also hate the night shift, my commute is longer because of where I live. I don't see my boyfriend anymore because he works dayshift. AND the list to get onto dayshift takes 3+ years... the specialty is not worth it. 

on top of it, as fun and interesting it can be to be a NICU RN, I miss my adult skills and talking to my patients. I miss having a normal life outside of work. I also miss working 3x12's days and not being tired.

In about (5) months I am able to apply to transfer to a different unit and I pray to my stars I am able to leave and get hired by anyone else. 
 

I'm gonna use these next few months to reflect and prepare my résumé for when I am able to leave. however I can't help but feel like a bad person for not liking the NICU. I don't love it and feel like someone else deserves my position more than me.

I would much rather want to work for and apply for positions in chemo infusion, the ED, adult ICU, float pool, OR, PACU, or even BMT. Anything DAYSHIFT. 

can anyone give me advice? Any other nurses out either switched floors and ended up being disappointed?

what units have you guys switched from? Is it wrong for me to job hop within my hospital??

can anyone tell me if it would be difficult to switch floors after being here in the NICU?

 


 

 

 

 

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Specializes in Med-Surg.

First, I would forget the 'friend' component at the workplace. It is a plus to be able to enjoy and relate to your coworkers, but at the end of the day, they are only coworkers. Keeping them as such initially (and maybe permanently) will help keep the focus on the job itself and allow you to not care about the cliches.

Secondly, you have two solid years of adult nursing in an acute care environment. Consider looking into the float pool for variety. Some pools may come with benefits, although that was not my experience. But the flexibility and pay couldn't be beat. Now, if the 'friend' aspect is important to you, then the float is definitely not going to work in your favor. For some reason, you'll encounter more colleagues who resent float nurses than those who embrace them....(just a word of caution).

As for changing units within a facility, well, my entire acute care career was via float pool or agency. If I made the decision to change, it was for an entirely different organization.😊

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Specializes in Oncology, NICU.

Thank you, have been considering applying to float pool for the experience. 

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Float pool  is extremely  difficult. I did it with 25 years of experience  and  had a hard time. You have enough experience to get a remote job . Research  insurance companies.

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Specializes in Psych, Addictions, SOL (Student of Life).

I know it's been awhile but what made you happy before nursing? There's a saying "Wherever you go, there you are." I stopped treating nursing as anything more than a job that pays the bills. Don't get me wrong. I don't hate nursing. I have friends and a decent income but my joy comes from things I do outside of nursing. My garden is a great source of joy and as a science nerd I channel that into a attempting to create new species through old fashioned hybridization. My family, my dogs and travel come next. If I'm not in my garden you will often find me and the girls (dogs) foraging in the woods, searcing for medicinal herbs to use in potions and spells.

Have a great day!

Hppy

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I agree with Been There, Done That about checking out other areas such as insurance Companies. Unless you want to stay in a hospital setting there are other areas to look into. How about a doctors office, research, school nursing or maybe Public Health. I had worked in a hospital setting several years when I decided I needed a change. I had wanted to try Public Health and had recently moved as I was getting married so I looked into it. I did become a Public Health Nurse and stayed in that area for 25 years. It was my niche. I did several different areas within public health and eventually became a supervisor which is something I never thought I would do. Research some of these others areas. You may find what you are looking for.

Specializes in NICU, PICU, Transport, L&D, Hospice.

Look at ambulatory care.  

Different strokes for different folks as they say.  I'd sit down and make a list of what you did and didn't love about each job.  As well as general preferences (stable vs critical, quick turnover vs keeping same patients longer, fast vs slow pace, etc, etc).  The more criteria you can come up with a preference option for the better.  I'd even add shifts and commutes and other such factors besides the work itself.  Don't go about it trying to figure out where your ideal job should be, just what it would theoretically look like.  Read back over your lists and look for trends.  From there you should be able to weed out many specialties, and may even notice that your list of preferences sounds like a specific specialty.  I know it may sound crazy but working backwards like this helps me.  Good luck!  Keep us posted!  

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Specializes in Med-Surg.

I enjoyed nursing as a new grad a hundred years ago. Although I didn't choose this field, things were so different and far simpler back in the day, compared to today.

Fortunately, I entered nursing at a time when it could be enjoyed as I learned my new skills, and now, because of the skills and years of experience, I can and do happily replace that faded enjoyment of nursing with the ecstasy of PAYDAY.😄😃

Occasionally, I cross paths with a colleague who knows exactly where I'm coming from; so we sit and chat a bit about the good ole days....until the call light by the entitled brings us back to reality. 

Remember two things: YANA (you are 'never' alone); YOLO: (you only live once). Proceed accordingly😉😊😎

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Specializes in Oncology, NICU.

Thank you guys for you all input I really appreciate it!! do you have any tips on surviving the next five months that I have to work night shift before I can transfer departments? I can't apply to transfer until then..  trying hard to stay positive.

Specializes in Med-Surg.
Sweetpea04 said:

Thank you guys for you all input I really appreciate it!! do you have any tips on surviving the next five months that I have to work night shift before I can transfer departments? I can't apply to transfer until then..  trying hard to stay positive.

Plan spontaneous weekend outings to keep your mind off work. Give yourself something to look forward to week by week. That's the only way I survived over twenty years of acute care. Work is just a means to an end: gotta get thru this 12-on to make it to the beach. Or: only 12 hours standing between me and _____ (fill in the blank).

Even now, my new job is in the nicest facility I've ever seen in my career. But I still walk through the door saying, "Y'all, we only have 11 hours and 59 minutes to go". Now, my coworkers have caught on. They come in saying, "only two more days to go".😃 Embracing where you are will make it feel less like captivity. If you can't beat 'em, joking 'em???? Nope, I got them to join me.😎

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