I feel so dumb, lonely and angry all the time

[Sincera2020]

I'm on my second semester and I feel like I'm not going to make it. I'm taking three online classes aside from the nursing program because I wasnt able to do those classes before getting in the program. I haven't failed any test so far, but I always feel like the dumb one in the group. I'm always the one who is struggling to understand the subject, the one who doesn't remember things. during our clinical pre meetings and post meetings I'm always the one that doesn't make sense and the instructor has to keep asking me questions to clarify what I'm saying. I don't spend any time with my kids, I hardly work and my house is always disgusting. I isolated myself from my family and my friends because they're always asking me for favors and I can no longer help them out and I hate to say no, so I just decided to just keep my distance. They dont help me and they think I'm always being dramatic. My in laws are terrible people, they have said to me that I'm not nurse material and that I'm not going to make it. I honestly feel so lonely. I notice that I no longer have patience for my kids and I have no motivation to do anything. I'm very depress. I have gained about 30 pds from the first semester to now. I've never seen myself this fat.

[AnnieNP, MSN, NP]

You have received great advice from everyone. I don't really having anything else to offer but I do echo what everyone here is saying. Be kind to yourself, you can do this.

[Forest2]

Just a few things I'd like to tell you.

Success is the best revenge. Sounds like the in-laws have some kind of issue because if they didn't have an issue they would be supportive. You don't have time to deal with THEIR problems.

Next, don't sweat the small stuff. Trim back every responsibility that you can. So what if something doesn't get done the way or in the timeline that you were able to do before. Hey, you're in nursing school now, all that other stuff has to change. If the kids are fed, clean and loved that is all that matters. Stop being so hard on yourself, that was a problem I had too. I was my own taskmaster, thinking I had to do it perfectly or not do it at all. When actually just getting it done was all that matter. And, not everyone learns the same, we aren't cookie cutter people. You may learn differently or take longer to learn in a certain way compared to others that seem like they are doing well. I bet they aren't doing as great as you think they are. They may be better actors though.

You are overwhelmed, I get it. Everything seems like it is going wrong. Yep, been there. See a doctor and see what they might be able to do to help. Perhaps they can offer counseling or medications, depression is nothing to mess with. Stuff yourself with healthy snacks and water, take vitamins and start looking after yourself. I mean really. If you don't take care of you, then who will? Then if you get down, who will take care of your kids?

You need some self-love girl. Hang in there.