I cant take nursing anymore

[chenoaspirit]

My job is horrible, dreaded, makes me ill...literally. I work med/surg. With staff cut to skeleton crew, I cant take the workload anymore. I love my patients, I like most of my coworkers. I am comfortable there (the only job Ive worked as a nurse). But we NEVER have any supplies, pharmacy NEVER has our meds there. I spend most of my time scavenging for supplies, arguing with pharmacy. They started a new medication reconcilliation system and half the docs refuse to do it, I dont understand it, its causing a pain in the orifice! I cant keep up anymore and I just cant take it anymore. Today, I honestly didnt know half my patients' names! I had one who had stool squirting out her midline abd incision that I was fighting with all day long, on top of everything else. This hospital is the only hospital within 70 miles and I dont want to commute such a distance, especially on bad roads, but what am I to do?! Everyone feels the same way, we break down and cry at work...its THAT bad. We all feel like this, but complaining does no good. Sorry for ranting, I guess I just needed to get this off my chest. And for those who are still reading, thanks for reading my post. Nursing is not what I thought it would be. I used to love it. Working at McDonalds looks better every day!

[ToxicShock]

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. Good thoughts coming your way

[Bugaloo]

Utopia vs. Reality is what they call it here. I feel so let down. My Utopia was NOTHING compared to my today's Reality! I would love to switch to another unit, but the entire hospital is the same no matter where I would go. The other day I had a fresh post-op TURP with a CBI and we were OUT OF CBI FLUID. Pharmacy was called multiple times and was told the urgency of more bags and by the end of my shift, guess what....still no CBI bag delivery from pharmacy. We were out of chux and out of colostomy supplies. I had NOTHING to work with and literally couldnt do my job. If things were run smoothly and the floor was well-stocked, I may not feel the same way I do now. Im off work for the next 3 days and instead of enjoying these days off....Im dreading going back to work. My job is now controlling my entire life whether Im there or not. Im thinking of going into home health, but Im not sure.

Thanks everyone for all your support and kind words/advice. I appreciate it. Its nice to know that Im not alone and I have you guys to vent to. My husband is supportive of any decision I make, but he doesnt understand what I go through. At least here at AN, I can talk with people who actually KNOW how I feel and what I go through.

Yep, yep and yep! I love that I can vent on here! You guys totally get it. By the way, I did Home Health for 15 months. It might have been just the particular company I worked for, but it was a mess too!