I started my new grad ICU internship in September with one other new grad nurse, and the internship was originally supposed to be 6 months long. Well, I'm almost at that 6 month mark and I am miserable. From reading other posts on here, I know it is normal to have these feelings, but I know without a doubt that I am not cut out for ICU nursing, at least not at this point in my life. My father past away a few years ago, and every time I encounter a patient that is nearing death or has died I lose it emotionally and have to go to the bathroom where I cry. Aside from the emotional stress, I am going through all of the other typical stressors that come along with being a new grad (feeling incompetent, anxious before, during and after work, trouble sleeping.) I know my limitations emotionally, and the ICU just is not the right place for me. I have made up my mind to quit but I feel horrible for doing this. The staff on the unit and my manager have been so supportive (they've even said they wanted to extend my internship by 2 months to make sure I'm ready to be on my own). I just don't know the right way to go about this. I mostly feel guilty because they have invested so much time into me and my manager has worked really hard to structure this internship around my needs.
I'm just wondering the best way to go about quitting? My manager doesn't know of the difficulties I've been having because I try to put on a happy face and grin and bear it. Should I call on one of my days off and tell her that I would like to schedule a meeting with her to discuss some things? Or should I talk to her on one of the days I'm working? I'm so stressed about this and any advice would be greatly appreciated?
On a side note..... I know this is a tough job market and there are so many new grads out there that have not found jobs. Please do not lose hope. You WILL find something eventually. Just keep praying and God will find the right job for you.
Thanks
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I started my new grad ICU internship in September with one other new grad nurse, and the internship was originally supposed to be 6 months long. Well, I'm almost at that 6 month mark and I am miserable. From reading other posts on here, I know it is normal to have these feelings, but I know without a doubt that I am not cut out for ICU nursing, at least not at this point in my life. My father past away a few years ago, and every time I encounter a patient that is nearing death or has died I lose it emotionally and have to go to the bathroom where I cry. Aside from the emotional stress, I am going through all of the other typical stressors that come along with being a new grad (feeling incompetent, anxious before, during and after work, trouble sleeping.) I know my limitations emotionally, and the ICU just is not the right place for me. I have made up my mind to quit but I feel horrible for doing this. The staff on the unit and my manager have been so supportive (they've even said they wanted to extend my internship by 2 months to make sure I'm ready to be on my own). I just don't know the right way to go about this. I mostly feel guilty because they have invested so much time into me and my manager has worked really hard to structure this internship around my needs.
I'm just wondering the best way to go about quitting? My manager doesn't know of the difficulties I've been having because I try to put on a happy face and grin and bear it. Should I call on one of my days off and tell her that I would like to schedule a meeting with her to discuss some things? Or should I talk to her on one of the days I'm working? I'm so stressed about this and any advice would be greatly appreciated?
On a side note..... I know this is a tough job market and there are so many new grads out there that have not found jobs. Please do not lose hope. You WILL find something eventually. Just keep praying and God will find the right job for you.
Thanks