Well there you have it, becoming an RN was officially the biggest mistake I have made thus far in my life. I am throwing in the towel and going back to my former career if they will have me. I had a good paying job, plenty in my retirement savings, my own home and a decent car. I saved up to pay for nursing school, saved enough to cover my mortgage and bills and a decent emergency fund. What I didn't plan for was the economy to tank and the nursing industry in my area to shun new graduates.
Throughout school I worked as a CNA, got my hospital experience and upon graduation there were no jobs to be had in my area. I flew to interviews in several parts of the country and got 2 job offers, that was a huge expense. I could have kept on working as a CNA, but well, most of my classmates over a year later still are doing just that. Less than 50% have gotten jobs working as an RN. I took a job out of state thinking it would just be for a year or so. Again the move was expensive. But here is my reality. I cannot sell my home, it is worth 70K less than I paid for it. I am not making much as an RN, and about half hourly I was making in my former career and it is not enough to cover rent here and my mortgage at home. I now have my magic year experience and now all the listings at home are asking for 2-5 years. The nursing homes are asking for 2+ years. Home health is asking for 2+ years. I have been filling out apps for months and regardless of my experience and references I get rejection notices. I have spent all my savings and am now at the point where I can drain my retirement account to keep afloat, or just go home. I can let my house forclose, but for what? To continue in an industry that uses you up and then throws you away? My hospital thinks of me as a number to fill a spot. They don't care that we work short every night and that we have 10 patients with no aids or secretary on nights to help out with call lights.
I miss my friends, I miss my family. I miss having a reliable car. I love my job, but well, all I have now is my job it has become my life. It is lonely and exhausting. I give up!!! Uncle!!! I get it I made a bad decision. It is going to take me years to get back to a place financially where I was 10 years ago.