Published Apr 28, 2013
futurebclpn
28 Posts
I have suffered with panic attacks, anxiety and depression for much of my adult life. I am in an LPN program now. I have 3 kids, youngest is 3 and a complete terror. I am having a panic moment right now as I sit in my vehicle waiting for my tear streaked face to get back to normal before I go inside to study. I am so overwhelmed with nursing school as well as several other things going on in my life. For the first time, I completely understand why people see suicide as their last resort. I get it. I can't do this.. Why did I think I could?
Tinker88
258 Posts
Don't give up yet! I have had times when I don't feel confident too! Us human beings are too hard on ourselves sometimes. I don't know what you may have going on in your life right now and I don't have children yet, but I believe people can do anything they set their minds to! How far are you into your program? Time flies by quickly! You can DO it! Just keep your head up. Sooner or later you will have a job making money for your family and doing what you love! Keep your eyes on the prize:) Remember to take care of yourself every now and then too! God bless you!
Mewsin
363 Posts
You can do this. I have questioned my own sanity for taking this program. We have those moments, and then you remember it will not last forever and others have gotten through it. You can do it. Take a breath and push through. Keep your head up.
pnkgirl25
354 Posts
I'm totally with you in this one. Whoever says nursing school is easy needs to be punched in the face! Its hard....really really hard. I'm in a 12 month program (4 more months to go) and this has been the hardest year of my life. I have gotten divorced, moved, had a major surgery and have a 4 year old daugter to take care of who im fighting for custody for... Girl i feel like I'm going bat **** crazy sometimes l. I just keep teeling myself this does have an end and in three years when I'm all done with school (im going to PA school after this) it will be with it. My daughter is my biggest cheerleader.. I hang my tests on the fridge when I get home and we both have a 30 second dance party in the kitchen and celebrate. Take one week at a time and just keep reminding yourself there is an end!!!
Build your support system and lean on them as much as you can
TheCommuter, BSN, RN
102 Articles; 27,612 Posts
Have you considered seeking professional help for your issues with anxiety and depression (if you have not done so already)? Anxiety and depression are valid medical problems that can become crippling to someone who is trying to get through school. I urge you to consult with a physician or some other type of mental health professional instead of throwing your hands up and insisting you can't do this anymore. Good luck to you.
jbrookec79
4 Posts
I can totally relate. I never had panic attacks until starting nursing school. You can do it though. Have faith in yourself. Don't give up:)
pmabraham, BSN, RN
1 Article; 2,567 Posts
There are times I've been extremely depressed in my life as well. For me, the hope that God has a plan for me helps me push through it.
What you are going through is hard; but you can get through it. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes we are so close to that end, but we are still in the darkness part.
Talk to your family about your feelings; if they don't understand, go to a support group. Talk to your pastor / priest. Keep on talking, keep on believing that hope is around the corner. While it may take some time for the light to be seen, you will see it. Hang in there.
seed3
14 Posts
I truly understand how overwhelming the PN program can surly b. when I got into the program my son was only 4 months old and my DTR was 7 yrs old,plus I worked full time. By saying this 2 u I'm telling u it can b done. Just keep praying
do-over at 40
8 Posts
I'm so sorry that you're feeling overwhelmed & hopeless. As someone who has struggled with depression & anxiety myself, I know what it's like to stand at the bottom of your life and feel like you'll never get anywhere. That said, let me tell you something I know for sure:
Depression LIES.
Fear LIES.
Please don't let those lies lead you to a darker place or put you in a position that you cannot recover from. Seek out resources in your community (friends, social services, church, school, family) to get the support and help that you clearly need.
The truth? Things can get better.
The truth? You are worth it.
Be brave - ask for help - and know that you are more valuable than you could possibly know.
Kittythestudentnurse
49 Posts
I am so sorry for what you're going through, and I can definitely relate. I've had depression & anxiety for many years and found that it was worse during school-especially with the high stress level and my sleep being off.
I definitely reached a breaking point in week 10 of my 15 week semester. Thankfully, my school offered counselling - that one hour session helped put so much back into perspective for me and the support of my friends in the program was a God-send, because they understood what I was going through.
You can do it! You just need to find the support to help you get through it, don't give up on your dream to be a nurse :). Best wishes, you're in my prayers :).