help

help

its going to be a year since graduation soon and i still cant find a job. pressure everywhere. i need to find a better solution. i udnerstand im not the only one in this situation so im trying to look at solutions.. its more stress to me than actually working or when i had my clinical rns which seems strange huh

ive applied outside of ca. ive tried outside of ca.

theres just so much riding on me getting this job i feel sometimes. since i live with my parents it's like they're looking down on me even more and sometimes they think i dont even try which is not the case its just the rejection is getting to me. maybe because i worked so hrd and that i really do enjoy helping people its just hard because i dont know where to look anymore. maybe i do need to try harder. and then ive got family members who i feel like i'm letting them down because i still havent found anything yet. my parents and i dont get along. im trying hard to not be deprssed and not be so sleepy because they're always getting upset with me and i feel like i don't have anyone to turn to.

i cant believe its been a year. i feel so stuck

i feel scared and i dont want to feel helpless because i want to be the one helping others. ive been volunteering at clinics and red cross centers to help

sometimes i think im overreacting. maybe i am but it's not so pleasant and ive been trying to hide this feeling but it does creep up on me.

trying to change the way i think instead of freaking out.. so maybe it helps to see solutions to what else you can do once u're not a "new grad" anymore" i dont want to give up on my dream... helping people and seeing them get better.