*heavy sigh*

[Nurse-One]

Sooo... I believe this weird feeling I'm experience in my lower back and belly for the past couple of months is anxiety. That's the feeling I usually got when testing or worried about things.

I remember reading and being tested, in nursing school, on how mild anxiety can help one test/perform better..Anyway.

First let me say, I am grateful to have my LPN license and have a job in this economy BUT...

I live in a state with not much support because I don't have much family around. (They are all up north) I can't just up and move because I don't have the finance to do so.

I have a per-Diem job working nights at an Alzheimer's facility(don't get enough hours). Its the only facility that has hired me since graduation in Aug 2009. I can only work nights because I have no one to pick up and drop off my son to and from school.(If I get the rare 5 nights to work,

I'm of no use to my 5-year old, cause I'm drained (it's just us two)) I have a mortgage, bills, and STUDENT LOANS(by-the-way, sallie mae has NO MERCY on NO ONE:down:) and everything else in between.

I'm a nurse, I'M NOT LOOKING TO BE RICH BUT AT LEAST MAKE ENDS MEET!!

I don't have enough "experience" that these other facilities are asking for..and yes...I have applied

anyway but no call back.

I've been trying to be a RN since 2006! I took all my pre and coreq's But there are ridiculous waiting list, and life situations that keep getting in the way. I moved to FL just to end up with a LPN. I'M TIRED OF SCHOOL!! I hate this.

I just want to get my RN:crying2:. My only reason for going into nursing was to become a Nurse-Midwife

because I love the babies and want to help mommies and families bring their bundle of joy into the

world. but it looks like I'll be stuck in elderly-ville for a little while longer. I know I won't be stuck in this situation forever, unless I do nothing to change it, but in the mean time its TOUGH!!!! I know I'm not alone but this is the only other place, besides praying, I feel I could REALLY say this.

Well, thanks for reading:o

[goodstudentnowRN]

I know the feeling but do not give up...At least you have a job. I am a new graduate with an RN license and no job so far. I will be praying for you. Have you tried Kaplan University? Maybe you should.

[missyrynal]

In CA, it's much easier to get into an RN program (in a community college) if you're already an LVN. I'm not sure if thats the case in FL.

[vegas2009]

So sorry to hear about your situation. But, inspite of what you are going through right now... it really is temporary. I know it looks bleak for now, but things will look up sooner or later. I wish I can tell you when. But, have faith. Things have a way of working themselves out. I don't know how. Keep the faith, things will get better for you.

P.S. It helps if you give yourself some aromatherapy baths, mild relaxing music maybe? Kickboxing?? (just kidding, that was the craze in the '90's).

Maybe a day in the beach? in a pool? runaway with your son for a weekend, just to relax -- get the kinks out? You'll never know, you'll feel refreshed afterwards.

[Pedsnurze]

Keep the faith. Prayers are answered in his time which is always the right time.