As some of you know, I am a new nurse. I got my license this past September. I had my first resident "expire" today. I've dealt with residents dying before- as an STNA. I've done post-mortum care several times, as well as comforted family members afterwards. But I have never had to be the one to tell the family initally before today. Wow-talk about gut-rentching. I still have tears in my eyes! It was not an unexpected death as this woman had been hanging on for a long time- but it was still difficult. I had no idea what to say- or if anything I could possibly say was even slightly comforting. I made it a point to tell them that she went peacefully and wasn't alone, which did seem to be somewhat of a comfort. I just can't shake that feeling. I did everything I could- but I just can't see how it could ever get any easier to tell someone that their loved one has died.
Anyway- thanks for letting me vent...I'm gonna go hug my kids now.