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Hi, here's how the classes go that is required in order to graduate. Nursing 101, 102, 202(dimensions of nursing), 203 and 204. Passed all of them. Then 205 is 5 weeks which is part of the... Read More

  1. by   Lisa CCU RN
    Quote from jjjoy
    I know what you mean here. No matter how many times you practice in skills lab, it's not the same as doing it in real life. And if you've done it once to check off on the skills list, it doesn't mean you necessarily feel confident about it. I need lots of repetition. Being a CNA was great to get good at patient transfers, taking vitals quickly and confidently, etc. But nurses are responsible for so much more!! I thought in school, I'd get lots of exposure to basic nursing tasks (starting and hanging IVs, checking labs, charting, etc) so that I'd at least be confident in those things but that wasn't the case.

    It seems the reality is that nursing is learning on the job - that is there isn't a whole lot of structure in one's instruction and learning process. Looking back, nursing school sometimes seems like it was of an introduction to nursing than actual training to be a nurse. We got a glimpse of most everything (insert one foley, remove stitches once, witness one childbirth, a few days with oncology patients or orthopedic patients, etc). It teaches the WHAT of nursing and WHY of nursing. If you make it through, THEN you start the process of learning HOW to be a nurse.

    Once you become a nurse, it doesn't get any easier. You've got to juggle a lot of responsibilities while trying to make sure that you're also finding opportunities to work on your weak skills. It's "get as get can" when it comes to trying new skills.

    If you really want to be a nurse, you'll have to get creative and find ways to get the experience and confidence you want. Check out if there are open skills lab at other colleges where you could practice skills even if you're not a student there (some make these available for a small fee to non-students). Try to get a job as a nurse tech at a hospital that also trains NAs in phlebotomy, ECGs, etc. Take an EMT course, perhaps.

    If you don't really want to be a nurse that badly, there's no shame in that, either. It's your life and your time and your choice!
    Very well stated.

    I want so badly to get this externship in a hospital I know will let me practice my actual nursing skills.

    I hate externships where all I do is CNA work. I was a CNA for four years; I got that down pat.
    I left that work to add to my basic CNA skills and enter the realm of nursing skills.
    I believe in the basics, but if I have to do one more bed bath!

    I almost wish I went to a diploma program. Don't they teach you more "hands on"?
  2. by   Asklepios
    *hugs Jes*

    Sorry things turned out the way they did for you. But maybe having to re-assess your situation and maybe having to take a different path to what you want will be good. Maybe you'll find a way to become stronger at the things you struggled with and when you finally become an RN you'll have the skills down pretty well. Maybe not getting done for another year wil put you in a better situation next year. You never know why things happen the way they do, but for every door that closes on us, another opens.

    Just keep your chin up, don't beat yourself up too badly, re-focus and re-dedicate yourself to your goal. Visualize yourself passing the course and becoming a nurse, and jump at every opportunity you get to make your goals a reality.
  3. by   JesL2bRN2007
    Wow thank you all for the support, it really lifted my spirits!
  4. by   JM284
    I think I know exactly how you feel. On my last day of clinical my instructor told me she wasn't sure if I had passed clinical and the decision would be made by a group the day after my final. This came as quite a shock as she had not mentioned this earlier in the semester. Having heard your story and having an advanced degree in another discipline I can only tell you that this is not how all programs and professionals operate. It was my understanding that teachers instruct, and aid in the learning process. thus far this has not been evident in nursing. Don't be too hard on yourself; the nurse assigned to you has an obligation as a nurse not to let someone unprepared continue and she should have mentioned to your instructor that she was not comfortable having you perform tasks/assessments or that you were not being assertive enough. You are not a mind reader!. Perhaps your instructor could've been a bit more diligent about doing her job and discovering how you learn best; it's what teachers are supposed to do!
  5. by   Butterflybee
    Good luck, blessings and prayers...the CNA thingy sounds like a wonderful idea : )
  6. by   JesL2bRN2007
    Thank you, you all are so helpful, I could cry!
  7. by   kukukajoo
    Jes- I know because I have been there. I actually read a book that helped a lot. I wish I could remember the title- I will look and see if I can find it but I don't know if it made it thru the flood.

    Anyhow, the book was written by a woman who does empowerment and motivational speeches now. She wrote about how she used to think she was not good enough and subconsciously it affected her in so many ways- relationships, jobs, education. In school- she would do well then "forget" to turn in the term paper or sleep thru the alarms on finals and fail out even though she had the capability to be a great student. She finally realized she was self-sabotaging and saw a therapist and she has finally overcome her self defeating ways to become a national speaker and inspiration to so many women including myself!! I believe she finally graduated with high honors too! You would be surprised what we do to ourselves without fully realizing the deep down roots of the whys and hows!

    I will try to find it or try to research the title for you. I know it helped me!
  8. by   CrazyPremed
    I'm currently in an ADN program (semester one down, three to go), and became close friends with a student who went through the same process as you.

    Honestly, I don't think that nursing school really prepares people for the job. This is probably why it takes a year as a nurse to really feel comfortable. Also, I've seen many situations in which a person can sail through an entire semester with great grades and skills, then - all of a sudden during the last couple of weeks - the clinical instructor 'decides' that the person is not capable of moving on. I feel that the educational process in nursing is non-objective, inconsistent, and sub-par because of the nursing instructor shortage. I don't know you, but I would question the theory that you may not be an acceptable nurse. Do what you need to do to get through the program, and find a great orientation program on a great teaching floor.

    As far as working as a CNA, I think that 3 months will give you great experience. You'll become comfortable in the environment, and learn many of the basics. It may not teach you to look at the big picture, but it may give you the confidence that you need. Also, do what is necessary to get through your program. If you have to fight to do your externship on a non-critical floor, then do so. If you have to threaten lawsuits, then do so. Once you get out of this program and pass your boards you'll never have to deal with them again. Good luck in your journey.