Hey allnurses world...wonder if anyone had sage advice...
I'm in a career slump. I have a history of adult critical care for 10 years, and had a chance to switch to peds critical care a couple of years ago. I love the new challenge of working with children, but it seems that for the most part, the parents of the children don't like me. I've been working with my manager to improve this via a performance improvement plan. I have been successful enough to be taken off of it nearly a year ago, and I thought things were ok. Well, I have had 2 double whammies in the past month:
First, I have been called in to the office again to discuss my interpersonal skills with the parents. My manager told me that she was not going to put me on a plan or write me up, but rather asked me I felt peds was the right place for me.
Second, due to low census, I have floated back to my old adult unit a few times. My manager called me to set up an appointment to discuss floating to my old unit...they apparently don't want me to come back! And I have absolutely no idea what I could have done to warrant that!
Critical care...up until these two events...has been my passion! I can't imagine doing anything else...ED, PACU, IV Therapy, teaching, clinic work...none of that interests me. I do feel my manager is one of the few decent ones that does want to see me succeed, however my confidence and self esteem is at an absolute low that I know it will affect my performance. The anxiety of being under the microscope is going to adversely affect me. I know scared parents is a weakness I need to work on, but if another unit is seeing something in me that is a red flag to them as well...it's clear I have some personal growth to contend with. But, can I do that and keep a job that I am afraid I may get fired from? I work in a no-cause state, non-union hospital.
How do I attempt to look for another job when my old unit (that I left on good terms with) does not want me to float there, and my current unit may very well put me back on a PIP and start that process of a termination? What do I say to potential new employers?
Any advice would be appreciated...I am having trouble sleeping at night and very upset by all of this. I know that a lot of this needs to come through working on myself...but that may not be enough. Any advice with how to deal with the interviews and HR of a different hospital system would appreciated!
Thanks!!