hmm

[pepper50]

if all of you would just say a prayer for me..i'd greatly appreciate it.

[SeychelleRN]

i don't expect a list of responses..cuz i doubt ppl will actually read my journal of a post, but if all of you would just say a prayer for me..i'd greatly appreciate it. :heartbeat btw..to those of you who actually read everything up to this point, thank you..

I read every word. Prayers and hugs to you. Having job is a blessing in this economy. Please learn from these experiences and have job lined up before you quit your job. I understand what you are going through.

[RN1982]

I'm lost. Are you working currently or no?

[mesa1979, BSN, RN]

I have to be quite honest here. I mean you gave up! We all have horrible days, but you have to keep pressing on. Being a new nurse, you have to establish some stability to show on paper that you are a dedicated nurse. A little soul searching might do you a little good. You have to ask yourself what it is that you really want to do in life. If you're the type that gets overwhelmed easily, I suggest a nursing home or assisted living environment.

[pepper50]

I'm lost. Are you working currently or no?

nope.

[RN1982]

I agree. You need to find out what you really want to do. You can't just give up on the first day because it was a bad day. How do you know it would be like that had you stayed longer?

[lpnflorida]

I do not know what to say beyond keep putting in your application. Keep your mind open to all possibilities.

[Wishinonastar, BSN]

I am also a "job-hopper", but the average person has somethng like 9.5 jobs by the time they are 35, and it is pretty common in nursing. The problem is, it is hard to find your niche, and hard to find the place that fits your needs. I never thought I would leave hospital nursing- I worked there as an aide, and in school I thought it was the place for me. Then I found that I went home crying all the time. I tried another hospital but it was not much better. I ended up in home health and have been here for 21 years- 10 years in the same hospital-based agency. It fits me. It is like hospital work, without all the craziness. We have all the technology, and all the clinical variety but we can see one patient at a time with no call bells or distractions.

One thing that I have done is work multiple part-time jobs. You can try things out without all the commitment. Don't be afraid to branch out. I have tried private duty, geriatrics, teaching, school nursing, hospice, hospitals, home health. You can work for an agency and do the same thing, but I am not that brave. If you can do it, part time is a great way to go. Don't give up. There is a shortage and they need you somewhere. It is possible that a bad reference is hurting you too, but you can overcome this with a good attitude and a good impression. No sense in beating a dead horse though. Are you sure you want to go back to something that did not work the first time? Good luck.

[aiker31]

i understand what you feel... (em being therapeutic here.=D)

anyway just don't stop looking for the right spot. with the present economic status of this country, we have to find every opportunity we have around. we don't have to settle for something less but we must also remember that we have to work hard to land a dream job. I'm a new nurse and newly wed like you and have been with alot of interviews and job hunting finding a perfect place, let go of some best offers around now ending up working in a much horrible job situation. im working but i'm still on the market finding for the good spot. Its depressing but we have to deal with it the best way we can. Talk with your husband, i'm sure he'll understand what you're going thru. you need alot of support here. its a long journey so hang in there! keep looking and be open, sometimes opportunities are just around we just keep ignoring it...

[*ac*]

I know you came here for support and probably don't want to hear this, but I read your whole post and it sounds like you are rationalizing a bad decision.

My guess is you are going to have to pay some dues at this point by taking a job that may not be your ideal and demonstrating that you can stick to something and deal with challenges/bad days/bad preceptors/less-than-supportive educators/etc appropriately.

[stillpressingon]

Have you considered working in an urgent care rather than hospitals? I know you want to go back to school for your bsn and work at the hospital that's affiliated with it, but maybe that's not a great option for you at this point. Just a thought. Working in an urgent care is obviously not the same - or even remotely similar to - working in an ICU, but maybe it'd be a good change.

It sounds like it doesn't take much for you to feel very overwhelmed. Maybe ICU is not great for you at this point and an urgent care or another relatively low stress job would be something to look at at this point. I also agree with the poster who suggested LTC/ALF.

[sctraveler]

I read it entirely. And yes I will pray for you. Some people will judge you not knowing what they would do having been in your situation(s). You must remember that what God has for you is for you and only you.Take care and be blessed.